Friday, September 30, 2005

Diary of a Mad Black Woman

There exists a part of me that most people never get to see. It is a side that only comes out when I feel like I or my family are being attacked. I feel intense rage inside the very core of my being and my only instinct is to protect my family.

Once this rage led me to beat a man with a whiffle ball bat. Another time, I picked up a teenager and moved her away from my sister. I have been known to speak before thinking and verbal defend myself and my family.

Today, one of my older sisters was verbally attacked in writing and upon hearing about it, that part of me kicked in. I was ready to protect and defend my sister. No one treats my family that way and gets away with it.

Then I thought about it. Although my rage comes from a seemingly good place, it doesn't serve me well. So I decided to handle things differently. I dealt with the offender in a different manner, one that was appropriate for the situation. That person didn't need to know how angry I was at the time because that ultimately won't solve anything. But I will take care of the situation and get it resolved quickly.

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Cellphone Therapy


You might want to consider your cellphone's mental state before you upgrade to a new one.

True Colors

You with the sad eyes
don't be discouraged
oh I realize
it's hard to take courage
in a world full of people
you can lose sight of it all
and the darkness inside you
can make you feel so small

But I see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow

Show me a smile then
don't be unhappy, can't remember
when I last saw you laughing
if this world makes you crazy
and you've taken all you can bear
you call me up
because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow

-Cyndi Lauper
from the CD True Colors, 1990

Monday, September 26, 2005

Just Do It

Maybe the NIKE people were right when they said "Just Do It". I have decided to finally create that web design business website that I've always wanted. I've already gotten a domain name, http://www.jmjdesigns.com/index1.htm.

I've also decided to build my site as my class project. We have to build a site in my Advanced Internet Class so I figured that since only my homepage is done, I can do the rest for myself and the class. Our teacher gave up some pretty strict guidelines, one of which is that the whole site has to be hand coded using Notepad or Notepad2; no WYSIWYG editors. YIKES! This will definitely be a challenge. We also have to come up with our own timetable for completion.

I'm going to look at this positively about this. I have to get use to doing web site proposals and setting up draft and action plans for real-world clients. So all this work, that I don't normally do, will come in handy one day.

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Take Courage

I found this scripture interesting:

1 Chronicles 29:17a "And I well know, O my God, that you are an examiner of the heart..."

When I read this, it made me think of how what is in our hearts can recommend us or condemn us. Many people in this world don't feel worthy of God's love. They feel like they haven't or can't do what pleases God. They feel like, "God wouldn't want me, I've sinned too much". Well, guess what? Luke 15:7 gives comfort to those who don't feel worthy of God's attention when it says, "I tell you that thus there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner that repents than over ninety-nine righteous ones who hae no need of repentence."

So, it's never too late. God knows what is in our hearts. If we want to be acceptable to him and don't know how or think it's too late, go to him in prayer and ask for his guidance. He'll give it to you, even if it seems to you that it's too late.

Friday, September 23, 2005

Carol King had it right

If you're out on the road
Feeling lonely, and so cold
All you have to do is call my name
And I'll be there on the next train

Where you lead, I will follow
Anywhere that you tell me to
If you need, you need me to be with you
I will follow where you lead

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Good Food and Good Friends

There's nothing like fried chicken, mac-n-cheese, green beans, key lime pie and a good friend to make a meal great!

Of course, we could've had two bowls of cereal and it still would've been a great time.

*Olive Juice*

No Time to Kill

There's no time to kill between the cradle and the grave
Father Time still takes a toll on every minute that you save
Legal tender's never gonna change the number on your days
The highest cost of livin's dyin', that's one everybody pays
So have it spent before you get the bill, there's no time to kill

If we'd known ten years ago today would be ten years from now
Would we spend tomorrow's yesterdays and make it last somehow
Or lead the cheers in someone else's game and never learn to play
And see the rules of thumb are all the same that measure every day
The grass is green on both sides of the hill, there's no time to kill

No time to kill, even I've said it, and probably always will
But I can look ahead and see that time ain't standin' still
No time to kill but time to change the kind of hurry I've been in
And quit this work and worry lookin' back at where I've been
If you don't look ahead nobody will, there's no time to kill

If we had an hour glass to watch each one go by
Or a bell to mark each one to pass, we'd see just how they fly
Would we escalate the value to be worth its weight in gold
Or would we never know the fortunes that we had 'til we grow old
And do we just keep killin' time until there's no time to kill

No time to kill, even I've said it and probably always will
But I can look ahead and see that time ain't standin' still
No time to kill but time to change the kind of hurry I've been in
And quit this work and worry lookin' back at where I've been
If you don't look ahead nobody will, there's no time to kill

No time to kill, even I've said it and probably always will
But I can look ahead and see that time ain't standin' still
No time to kill but time to change the kind of hurry I've been in
And quit this work and worry lookin' back at where I've been
If you don't look ahead nobody will, there's no time to kill

No time to kill
No time to kill
No time to kill

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Telecommuting

I think I could use to this! I'm telecommuting two days this week. It took me a little bit to get started today. But once I got started, I was on a roll.

I decided not to change my routine too much so I got up this morning and did my walk. I took my mom to the gym with me and we did the treadmill. Fun was had by all :)

After I got home, I took a shower, made some breakfast (why haven't I bought a coffee maker yet?), and settled in to get some work done. I have my list, my to-do list. I made it yesterday and it consists of projects that I can do without connecting to my work computer. At first I was worried that I wouldn't have enough to do, but as it turns out, I may have too much to do.

At 4:30 I'm taking a break to go to the pool for deep water fitness, otherwise known as aquafit. That will cap off my day. I'll do a little more after I get home to finish off my 7.5 hours of work and then it'll be time for homework. OH JOY!

Someone tell me that I wasn't crazy to sign up for classes.

Monday, September 19, 2005

So you want to be a web designer

webkidjulie: someone in my internet class asked me if web design was an easy field to get into
Liz41533: oh, sure...
webkidjulie: I told her that if she had an art background, programming experience, some knowledge of marketing and business and a degree, it's easy to get in
webkidjulie: that is if you want to do it right
Liz41533: LOL
webkidjulie: seriously, I told her that the industry is saturated with people who just know the software to build sites, FP, Dreamweaver, GoLive, etc. But the real challenge is knowing how to make a functional site that's attractive, easy to use, and goes along with the intended purpose of the business or individual
webkidjulie: if you can do that, then you're really a web designer
webkidjulie: more web nazi rhetoric
Liz41533: :)
webkidjulie: if it weren't offensive, I'd want a tshirt that says, "web nazi"
Liz41533: LOL
Liz41533: sounds like you go around persecuting *people* in chat rooms or something
webkidjulie: yeah, really

Sunday, September 18, 2005

In the cobwebs of my mind

I don't know what's going on with my subconscious lately. I've been having dreams of the twin towers again. I want to say that it's because one week ago today was September 11th. But the dreams started a while ago. I had my second dream of the past month last night.

In my dream, I was in the hospital, which it was in the North Tower (in my dream). I was injured in some sort of way that I had to be in wheel chair. Suddenly the building started to shake. It wasn't hit, but instead it started crumbling. The floor that I was on began to split open and revealed blocks of ice. Lauren Graham was visiting me, but for some reason she disappeared and I was all alone and couldn't get to the elevator. Some how I managed to make it to the stairs and for some reason I decided that the best way to get down the stairs was to slide down the banister.

I made to the bottom floor and out of the building. It was chaos, but some how I got away. Then I woke up.

It's the strangest thing because sometimes I make it out and sometimes the dream ends before that. I don't know why I keep having these kinds of dreams. It's a little unnerving because no one wants to think about their own death.

Friday, September 16, 2005

TGIF

It's been a long week. I'm ready for the weekend. I have a ton of homework, but that's ok. I can get through that.

OK...

Kenny Chesney and Renee Zellweger, were we really surprised that their marriage didn't last? Zellweger is claiming "fraud" as her grounds for the annullment. Most of the articles I've read said that this is unusual and hard to prove. But if you think about it, maybe it's Kenny that should be claiming fraud.

Go with me on this one....

Reportedly, Kenny Chesney developed a crush on Renee (or should I say her character) when he saw her in Jerry Maguire. He was so enamored with her that he wrote a song called "You Had Me At Hello". That could be considered either incredibly sweet or incredibly creepy. You take your pick. So this past January when they met at a Tsunami relief telethon, well of course, it was love at first sight. Kenny met Dorothy Boyd, er, Renee Zellweger. Sorry I got Renee confused with her character from Jerry Maguire.

Oh wait, maybe Kenny did too. Maybe Kenny realized that didn't marry Dorothy, a make believe woman, and that he really married Renee.

Hmmm....

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Protect Yourself

My day was filled, or maybe I should say, jammed packed with activities. It started at 7 am when my sister called and asked me to print out pictures of our family for my neice's class. They were making a family tree. I don't remember making family trees at two years old, but then again, I was two years old 30 years ago.

When I got to work, the "fun" continued. I had a ton of work orders and it seemed to me that everyone needed their work order done, not today, but yesterday. My mind was swirling and I began to feel like I was going to have a panic attack. Now, it probably wasn't a good idea to have a cappuccino, but you live and learn.

I went through the rest of the day, wondering if I had enough time to get everything done. My brain became aware of every second that passed. Oh yeah, let's not forget the Mellow Yellow at lunch. Mellow Yellow is Coca-Cola's version of Mountain Dew. What's the best way to come down from a cappucinno high? Get a soda buzz. If you are shaking your head in shame right now, you wouldn't be alone. Around 4:00 pm, the buzz started to where off and my brain started calm down. I also felt like I was getting things done.

I'm really tired right now. It's probably all the caffeine making its way out of my system. I'm still not going to fold the laundry today. But for sure, tomorrow. Although, one of my friends suggested that I just leave the clothes on the living room floor and just pick out my outfits from there. I don't think I'll do that. But it's tempting.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Who is he kidding?

I read this article about Bill Gates today and thought to myself, "Yeah right. Napolean Dynamite is way cooler than Bill Gates."


Microsoft's Gates faces off with Napoleon DynamiteTuesday September 13 10:12 PM ET

Pick your favorite geek: Napoleon Dynamite or Bill Gates?

Seeking to capitalize on the popularity of the 2004 cult movie "Napoleon Dynamite," Microsoft Corp. on Tuesday screened a video spoof for software developers in which the film's celebrated anti-hero reports to work as a programer for the world's largest software maker.
In a face-off between the two nerd icons, Jon Heder, the actor who plays Napoleon Dynamite, beats Gates in a slapping match to become the head of the software giant.

Gates is shown recruiting Heder's fictional character, after which they are seen together in ill-fitting brown suits on Microsoft's campus in Redmond, Washington.
In the last scene of the video spoof, Gates is seen scurrying into the office of his boss, Napoleon Dynamite.
Microsoft often uses major events to poke fun at its competitive business culture and and its hands-on chairman, Gates, the company's largest individual shareholder and the world's richest man with an estimated net worth of more than $48 billion.
Microsoft showed developers preliminary versions of its upgrades of its flagship Windows and Office programs to software developers at this weeks' conference in Los Angeles.


****Just an aside, 'Jon Heder' was paid $1,000 to play Napoleon Dynamite. The movie grossed over $40,000,000 in the United States.

More Napolean Trivia

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Surprise

Sometimes you can't look a gift horse in the mouth. You just take the gift you're given and say thank you.

Monday, September 12, 2005

Katrina aid from Cuba? No thanks, says U.S.

webkidjulie: "Hi, this is George Bush calling. Yeah, I appreciate you wanting to help, but I'd rather let a few thousand more people die before I take your stinking money, you communist pig

*click* (phones slams down)

"Honey, what are we having for dinner"

hrlady99: yah, we have to remember these are the same people that turned down evacuation help from Amtrak, bus companies, etc. Amtrak had a train that they were sending out of the area anyways to put it at safer ground and offered to load it with evacuees. They ended up driving off empty because they were turned down.

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/9311876/

Saturday, September 10, 2005

Spring Cleaning

I need to do spring cleaning in my apt. I've let things go for a while. It's not a complete mess, but my apt could stand to get an overall wipe down and vacuum. I have a brunch to go to and then I'll be back to clean.

There's nothing like a clean space to help clear my mind.

Friday, September 09, 2005

First week of classes

So ends my first week of classes. So far, everything has been ok. I did have to do an online library scavenger hunt for the information literacy class. That was interesting.

I'm getting a little more comfortable with my schedule, but I still have some work to do. I need to write out a schedule of study so that I don't get behind in my classes. I also need to schedule my spiritual studies as well. It's going to be an interesting few weeks as I grope for that balance.

BTW, on Sunday, it'll be September 11th. I'm not planning to watch too much regular tv. I probably should get some dvds from blockbuster tomorrow.

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Trapped in my car

You won't believe what happened today. I got in the car after my aquafit class and when I got home, my car door was stuck. I can't get it unlocked. I had to climb out of the passenger side door. I was none too happy.

Oddly enough, I found an article about someone with the same make and model car with the same problem. So I need to break into my car to get the door open to see what the jam is. Then it's possible that I'll have to have the lock replaced.

You know, of course, that I don't have money to get this fixed. :(

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Learning about the library

I'm taking the following class:

LIBS150 Information Literacy and Research Methods
They should call it, "Defanging the Library"

Here's the course description:

An introduction to the research process and methods for retrieving information in a library or through online sources. Development of a research topic and the creation of effective strategies for finding relevant information are discussed and practiced. The following information literacy skills are emphasized: understanding the research process; selecting appropriate print and electronic sources to answer research questions; effectively using Web search engines and UMUC Information and Library Services' electronic resources to find information; and evaluating, organizing, and correctly citing the information found.

Yeah, ok. I just want to know if after I take this class I'll be able to go into the library and find a book without asking the library people for help.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Incredible

I read that someone said that Hurricane Katrina was God's wrath against the United States. I cannot believe that and I will not believe that. If you take an honest scientific look at what man has done to this earth, the increase in natural disasters is a direct result of man's continued destruction of the environment.

God doesn't kill innocent people because of the sins of a few. He just doesn't work that way.
The quote that I read came from a person of a non-christian religion. I can't attest to the belief system of this person, but I can say this. If you want to look for someone to blame, you'll need a lot of fingers. Big business is to blame for deforestation, over production of the land, and general lack of consideration for mankind. The green house effect, that many people don't believe in, is basically to blame for the increase in natural disasters.

Now if you want to blame someone for the lack of evacuation efforts before the hurricane, again, you'll need lots of fingers. I'm not going to name names, because I think that at this point, it's useless. However, the resources being used to transport people out of the devasted areas, should've been used ahead of time. The resources, that were already allocated to fix the levy systems shouldn't been diverted to the war.

It's not like New Orleans and the other Gulf Coast cities were built a few years ago. The government knew about the possibility of this disaster decades ago. It's like government officials were in denial about this problem for years. Hopefully, they will fix the levies to prevent this type of disaster from happening again.

It's a sad situation.

Monday, September 05, 2005

Why Do We Get Labor Day Off?

Raise a glass to the desperate politicking of Grover Cleveland.
By Brendan I. Koerner


GroverCleveland's desperation is to thank for Labor Day

The nation will observe Labor Day this coming Monday, allowing millions to enjoy the waning days of summer, as well their last chance to wear white pants without earning a "tsk tsk" from Miss Manners. How did this early September holiday get its start?

Though President Grover Cleveland declared Labor Day a national holiday in 1894, the occasion was first observed on Sept. 5, 1882, in New York City. A parade was organized by the city's Central Labor Union, a branch of the Noble Order of the Knights of Labor, a secretive labor union founded in 1869 by a clique of Philadelphia tailors. Historians still debate over whom, specifically, to credit with the idea of a holiday dedicated to the workingman. Some say that Labor Day was the brainchild of Peter J. McGuire, co-founder of the American Federation of Labor. Others argue that Matthew Maguire, the CLU's secretary, was the holiday's mastermind and that he doesn't receive proper credit because he ticked off the mainstream labor movement by running for vice president on the National Socialist Labor Party ticket in 1896.

According to Ted Watt's The First Labor Day Parade, the September date was chosen because it coincided with a Knights of Labor conference in New York, thus guaranteeing a sizable turnout for the festivities. Though the event wasn't particularly festive, at least by today's standards: It resembled a protest far more than a parade, with CLU members required to march in support of the eight-hour workday. (Those who ditched faced fines.)

The CLU held the event again the following year on the same date. In 1884, however, the organization shifted gears and mandated that Labor Day take place annually on the first Monday in September. In 1887, Oregon became the first state to make Labor Day an official holiday, with Colorado, Massachusetts, New Jersey, and New York quickly following suit.

For a while, Labor Day had stiff competition from May 1. In 1884, the American Federation of Organized Trades and Labor Unions declared that, by May 1, 1886, the eight-hour workday should be in effect across the land. When legislators and employers failed to comply in time, the result was a general strike and the bloody Haymarket Riot in Chicago, which caused the deaths of eight police officers and led to the hangings of four labor activists.

Though May 1 became an important day for Socialists and Communists, state governments and less radical labor leaders feared that the date was too emotionally charged. In 1894, after President Grover Cleveland ordered the brutal suppression of the Pullman Strike, he realized that he had to do something to curry favor with the labor movement, which viewed him with contempt. Worried that a May 1 holiday would encourage rabble-rousing in commemoration of the Haymarket Riot, he followed the lead of several states and made the first Monday in September a federal holiday in honor of the workingman. The political maneuver didn't achieve its desired effect, however: Cleveland lost the Democratic Party's 1896 presidential nomination to William Jennings Bryan.

Bonus Explainer: May 1 wasn't forgotten, however. In the 1920s, it became known in the United States as Loyalty Day, and it's still observed with an annual presidential proclamation that asks all government officials to take the not-so-outlandish step of flying the U.S. flag above their buildings.

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Cookout

My family went to the end of the summer family cookout today. I initially wasn't going to go because I really need to save as much gas as possible. But I decided to go and ended up having a good time. I ate way more than I should've, but I figured that what's everyone does at cookouts.

Of course, I brought home a plate of food. I won't have to cook tomorrow. WOOOOHOOOO!

Saturday, September 03, 2005

Hurricane Katrina Relief







From: http://www2.oprah.com/uyl/katrina/uyl_katrina_help.jhtml

In this time of national crisis and overwhelming tragedy, here's what you can do to help with the relief effort or find support.

Friday, September 02, 2005

What a week

This week was the first week of classes. It was also the first week of recovery for the hurricane ravaged states of Louisana, Mississippi and Alabama. The devastation is incomprehensible. It makes me so sad to see the images.

Unfortunately, there are many people who are taking the opportunity to scam people into donating money. If you get emails about donations, be very cautious. Most reputable rescue agencies have no means to do mass emails. Your best bet is to go to the Red Cross.

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Enegizer Bunny

Today, I had the first Caramel Macchiato in a few months and let me tell you, I was flying. I was so energized by the small cup of coffee... Ok, I'll admit it, I was bouncing off the walls and I felt like I was shaking on the inside. It's amazing how your body reacts to things after not having them for a long time.

I thought of something today. Yesterday was August 31st. On August 31, 1991 I was baptized as one of Jehovah's Witnesses and I dedicated my life to serving God. I think that in the past 14 years, I could've done better in my service to God; could've shown more faith and reliance. But I do know one thing. I am in a place right now where doing my best to serve Jehovah has been more important to me than ever before. I really want to give my all. One thing that has helped me is knowing that I don't have to be perfect at it.

See as a classic over-achiever, I'm used to doing really well in most things. My field service (house-to-house ministry) is something that I've never felt completely confident in. Maybe that's a good thing. There's no room for over confidence in this humble work. But I also know now that giving a witness is done in several ways. My conduct alone gives a witness to the God that created me. If I work hard to reflect his qualities, I become a better citizen in this world and a better servant of his.

So it's all good. I'm not at the level I hoped I'd be when I got baptized. But I'm getting there.