Saturday, June 23, 2007

Saturday 6.23.07

On Saturday, we went to Firenze (Florence) to visit the Duomo and the Uffizi. The trip was long, but it was well worth it. The Duomo had lots of paintings in the main hall including the painting depicting Dante and the Divine Comedy by Domenico da Michalino.


The Uffizi had mostly renaissance paintings and sculptures. Most of the art looks like the same guy painted them because the colors and styles were basically the same. There were lots of dark tones and pudgy people. There were some paintings that I saw in our Florence guide book that I actually saw in the Uffizi. For example the Battle of San Romano (by Paolo Uccello) depicting Florence’s victory over Siena.


The other piece that we saw was Michelangelo’s David, but it wasn’t “the real David”. The sculpture at the Uffizi is a copy. Italy is freakishly obsessed with David in a way that is disturbing. Michelangelo choose to depict a nude David going to slay the Philistine giant Goliath. Here’s the thing, nowhere in the bible does it say that David was nude when he did this. In fact, if you read the actual account in the bible at 1 Samuel 17: 38-48, you actually find out that David was completely dressed for battle. So why did Michelangelo portray David in the nude? The thing I that really don’t understand is the fact that Italians almost deify David and his nakedness. It is depicted on t-shirts and boxer shorts and all kinds of paraphernalia that is probably meant for tourists. They have turned a very important historical bible character and made him into a phallic symbol that they knowingly or unknowingly worship.

From the outside, the Uffizi looks like two buildings joined by a hallway or bridge on the southern end. The Florence guide book suggests taking two days, if possible, to see the entire Uffizi. But for us, that really wasn’t possible. Tiffany and I wandered throughout the rooms, but somehow miss the Michelangelo and Botticelli rooms. We did see a lot of nice sculptures in the hallways, including the bust of Vespasiano. It is a multi-colored marble sculpture that was very realistic.

After the Uffizi, we had to make our way back to the bus station. But first we went to Ponte Vecchio, which is a bridge that has a lot of jewelry stores. This is where you get the gold and silver that people talk about when they talk about shopping in Florence. After the Ponte Vecchio, we started walking back to the bus station. Somehow we wandered into an open air market that had lots of purses, scarves, t-shirts and other stuff that a tourist would like.

Friday, June 22, 2007

Friday 6.22.07

The last day of language class… We learned more about prepositions and other household vocabulary words. I’ve been waiting for this day to come all week, but suddenly I feel like I don’t want it to end. I don’t have enough grammar and vocabulary to go out in the world and effectively express myself. Now I want to learn more Italian. But what would be cool would be if I could download a huge chunk of Italian straight into my cerebral cortex the way seven of nine downloaded voyager’s library on Star Trek Voyager. I think that my closest alternative is listening to my Teach Yourself Italian CDs, which I think I’ll need to do starting in the next day or so.
We did get certificates to prove that we took Italian in Italy. That’s going in a special place at home.
The afternoon was far less interesting. Instead of visiting a museum, we did laundry. Quite of number of us needed to wash clothes, so we found a place that is self service and conveniently located near a restaurant where we could eat lunch in between loads. The Laundromats weren’t too different from American Laundromats except that you don’t put the change in the machine. There is a machine on the wall where you feed your money. Tiffany and I got a couple of loads done, but she ended up re-washing our white clothes again at home. We didn’t do much after that, except prepare for our trip to Florence the next day.

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Thursday 6.21.07

We learned numbers today, at least the numbers up to 100. We even played a counting game. Learning language almost makes you feel like you’re in kindergarten. That is until you go outside and hear five year olds speaking way better than you ever could.


In the afternoon, we went for a walk to Piazza Gramschi for lunch. We ate Panini, which weren’t like the kind you get at Giant. Here in Italy, Panini just means sandwich. We had our lunch over in the park because eating at a restaurant actually costs more if you sit down and eat it there.
The park was nice. There were trees and I suddenly realized that I hadn’t seen any trees in the city since we arrived. It was a hot day, so sitting in the shade was a refreshing change. While we were there, Celeste told us a little about the history of Italy. There was a statue in the middle of the park of Guiseppe Garibaldi, the man who helped unify Italy into a nation. Apparently, back in the day, each state in Italy was its own country, which accounts for the variety of Italian dialects. It wasn’t until the 1800s that Italy became a unified country. Today, Italy has a socialist government.

Celeste also told us about the physical differences between northern Italians and southern Italians. Southern Italians tend to have more olive skin tones while northern Italians tend to have lighter skin tones. Because Siena is situated in a huge tourist area, it is harder to distinguish one Italian from another Italian.

After the park, Celeste, Tiffany and I went shopping. We finally found tennis shoes which came in handy because we have plans to go to Florence on Saturday. There is a store called Bata, which is similar to H&M with similar prices. We both found shoes that were about the same prices as American prices. I got some Nike Running shoes that ended up being the perfect shoes for the trip.

I think we wore Celeste out, because she didn’t join us for food shopping. We have gotten the hang of the local supermarket now. We bought a bunch of food only to realize that we wouldn’t be eating at home for a day or so. We went out a restaurant with the group that night. The owner of the restaurant made us four piattas (courses). They were all good and if I had had the room, I would’ve eaten more. Afterwards, we walked through the streets, listening to various jazz bands along the way. Thursday was the city wide jazz festival with bands playing in fourteen different locations throughout the city. The music was nice and it reminded me of American Jazz. At 11:00 we walked Geri to her bus and then headed on home.

Every night, no matter what we do, I am thoroughly exhausted; but it’s a good exhaustion. But it does make for rough mornings. I just discovered that there is a coffee machine in the student lounge. It has way too many choices, but it does the trick for me in the morning.

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Wednesday 6.20.07

Today in class we learned more vocabulary words and the conjugation of the regular –are and –ere verbs. There are so many verbs in Italian that are similar to Spanish verbs. We also played Pictionary, which was interesting. My team kept getting hard words like “match”, “sing”, and ”play” while the other team got words like pizza and scissors. Despite that, it was really fun; probably the most fun we’ve had all week.
I was asked if the style of teaching at Dante Aligheri was good for learning Italian. This was a difficult question to answer because I haven’t taken an introductory language class in nine years. Even then, I had some Spanish under my belt from high school. I honestly forgot how hard it is to learn a new language from scratch. I feel like, if I ever do this trip again, I definitely want to take a semester of Italian first. I definitely feel lost because I’m not able to communicate with people like I would like.
In the afternoon, I finally posted to my blog. The Internet Train, the internet café near our apt is great. We can get in and get out without any problems. After the Internet Train, we headed over to the bank on Banchi Di Sopra. This bank is the oldest bank in Siena and it houses some great Senese paintings. Too bad we didn’t get to go in and see them. Apparently, the website that tells you how great these paintings are forgets to mention that they’re not available to the public. The man in the lobby was extremely rude to Celeste. But she held her own.
Afterwards the group split up and Tiffany and I went on the hunt for some shoes. My canvas converse split a hole on the side and they were making my feet hurt. So I wanted to find some running or walking shoes. Every store wanted an obscene amount of money for the plainest and ugliest shoes. So we gave up for the night.
When we got home we set up the laptop and watched Freedom Writers with Hillary Swank on DVD. It was a good movie, but had an unnecessary amount of profanity. The theme, though, was good and I even thought that we could watch it at diversity committee retreat. It gave an interesting prospective about how the educational system works in poor areas and in particular in one school in Los Angeles. If you get a chance to watch this movie, it is really good. The advertisement made it look like the typical white teacher going in to save the helpless black kids. But under the surface it was so much more than that. The movie is based on a true story, which if you watch the DVD extras, you get to see more of the real teacher and students about whom the movie is based.

Walking...

Wednesday June 20, 2007
We have walked and walked and walked and then a few hours later, we walked some more. I had blisters before we left because of some ambitious morning walks. So now my feet are on fire on a daily basis. The lace-less Converse that I searched for over a month, now look like I’ve been wearing them for 15 years. Today, I’m going to find some sensible walking shoes. We’re also scheduled to go to the bank today to see some art that is in the bank. Hopefully, it is more exciting than it sounds.



Yesterday, after class, we went to the Palazzo Publicco in il Campo (the center of town). It looks like a large church, but it is actually their city hall and a museum. Most of the frescos were of ancient popes, biblical scenes and what seemed to be historical paintings of a Siena gone by. There was one painting in particular that showed the Florentine soldiers taking over Siena and building a great wall that still stands today. Most of our students live outside that wall, but their homes are still considered Siena.


The frescos were interesting and very intricate, although I have to admit, they weren’t the style of art that I like the most. Having read some information about the art work of that era, I find some of the paintings, or should I say the content, a little unsettling because some things just seem historically inaccurate and some things seem to glorifying a system or governing authority that in reality oppressed its subjects. I guess, I like contemporary, 20th century art more. But then again, I think that for me, 20th century art is more relatable. I probably need to read more about medieval and renaissance art.


My body is still adjusting to the time change and the eating schedule. People eat on another time table than I am used to eating. So Tiffany and I made our way to the local supermarket (Conad) to gather food stuffs for a couple of days. We got breakfast, lunch and dinner for about €15 which is about $19 US. I was surprised because we would have spent close to $30 if we bought the same amount of food at Giant in Columbia. Our apt mate, Gail, came with us and we got food for dinner. When we got home, we all cut up veggies to make a sautéed veggie dish and pasta. It was light and inexpensive, which was just our taste and price.


There are a flurry of activities coming up within the next week. Once we are finished with language classes we can go on more day excursions and see more sights. As soon as I am able to, I’m going to start posting pictures. The wireless internet connection at school takes a long time to kick in and we don’t have long breaks at all during the day. For now, I’m just writing up my blogs, saving them to a thumb drive and going to the Internet Café down the street.

The Act of Traveling

June 16, 2007
When you travel, your journey starts long before you actual step foot on a plane. Your journey begins in your mind weeks or months before ahead. There’s so much planning, learning, and discovering to do. For me, the journey started in January when I made the financial commitment to go to Italy. This was more of a cerebral action because putting out money didn’t make the trip real. It felt more like paying a bill.
When I submitted my leave slip for the weeks, it was a scary thing because I didn’t and still don’t have three weeks worth of leave. It was then, that I made the time commitment. This step of the journey has worried me the most. How do you schedule a 23 day vacation when you only have 9 days of leave? After doing a lot of math, I figure out that I only needed 15 days of leave. I’ll get 2 days by the end of June and 5 on July 1st. That’ll cover all the time I need.
After you make the finance and time commitment, your next step is to get organized. This inevitably brings on the emotional commitment; at least it did for me. With other trips, I’ve been emotionally vested right from the start. This time I felt too overwhelmed to get emotionally attached. I don’t want to say that I was disinterested, but it took a long to feel like the trip was really going to happen. To be honest, it wasn’t until I was in the Dulles airport that I actually felt excited about the trip.
When we changed planes in Montreal, all my feeling hit me. We’re really doing this! We’re going to Italy. Hearing Italian instructions on the plane to Rome really made the trip real; more than ever before.
Later that day…
On the bus from Rome to Siena, most everyone fell asleep. I think I was the only one who actually slept for a long time on the plane; both of them in fact. I slept most of the flight to Montreal and most of the flight to Rome. In fact, I went to sleep on the bus from Rome to Siena. For a while we were on a highway where the traffic was at a standstill. There had been a traffic accident and someone died. Thankfully, the person was gone by the time we passed the accident scene.
When we finally arrived in Siena, Tiffany and I explored the neighborhood and found the internet café. You know that I can’t be disconnected from the internet for too long without losing my mind. So the Internet Train was a welcomed surprise…and it is one block from our apt. During our walk to find Marie’s place, we ran into Celeste, the director of the language group who that she had made reservations at a restaurant for 8pm and that we were welcomed to join her, Marie and Keighley for dinner.
The ristorante was on a hill with tilted tables. I sat on the lower side and it made me look like the shortest one there. The top of the table was only inches away from my chin. Marie said that I needed a boaster seat. The place mats were brown paper bag sheets, perfect for drawing. I need to find some crayons to carry with me at all times. Italy makes me want to draw and I never know what I might draw.
At the table next to us, a signore said, “Hey isn’t this the table that fell last night?” This made me nervous because I hadn’t considered that the table would be stable. Before then, I was most concerned with not falling myself. All the hills and steps make me nervous. I was instructed not to fall and break any bones in Italy.
The meal – it was simple, but good. We had authentic spaghetti with meat sauce. It is Italy after all… how could not have spaghetti? After wards, Tiffany and I walked back home and realized that we forgot where we live. We did eventually find the apt.
It’s funny…for as much as I have travelled, inside and outside the US, this trip feels weird to me. Marie says that I keep “Monk”ing out, meaning that everything is freaking me out. In a way that is true. I still don’t feel comfortable doing some things like showering and going to the bathroom. The shower is so small that I barely fit in it. I’m actually still petrified of the shower, but I usually afraid of new showers for the first couple of days of any trip. Also, not having much Italian under my belt is very disconcerting. When I’ve gone to Mexico, I could communicate with people, albeit slowly. At best, I can say “thank you”, “yes”, “no”, “to the left”, “to the right”, and “straight ahead”. My Spanish is helping in some ways and in some ways, it’s a hindrance. I keep calling the (€) euros, pesos and I’m having a hard time with the pronunciation of some words because they are so similar to Spanish. We have our placement tests tomorrow. I’m thinking about just putting my name on the test and handing it back. I want the beginning class…Italian for dummies is what I want.

Monday, June 04, 2007

Bedrock Anthem

Sunday, June 03, 2007

The Rain

The funny thing about rain is that is serves so many purposes. It helps to clean the air on the way down to the ground. It waters the vegetation and crops so that we can have food to eat. At it's most powerful, it can destroy cities, towns and whole civilizations.

Yet at the same time, to sit by your window and watch it fall can be one of the most enjoyable experiences a person can have. In areas that desperately need rain, a rain shower can be like manna from heaven. There have been many times when rain has brought me comfort...made me feel better...washed away the cares of the day.

My heart has been heavy the past few days. I needed solace, the assurance that everything would be alright...And then it rained. Slowly, my worries started to fade. I feel like I'm being washed clean of my fears.

Things will be OK.

Soul Sista

Had a friend once upon a time who had a hunger to learn
Good and bad was all she had and all she was concerned
She found out they were one and the same

The truth don’t need to have a name
She loved to share with the moon soon she shared with me
The adventure this life could be
If we just let ourselves be free

She gave me peace of mind
Like a butterfly song to a rainbow shrine

And today feels good
Soul sista
today feels good
soul sista

We never answered too much we asked all the time
Why I was always looking and what there was to find
We threw it all into the wind laughter sharing
Me and my best friend

Her voice was fine and it eased my soul
Her face was young but her eyes were old
And magic would unfold

She gave me peace of mind
Like a butterfly song to a rainbow shrine
And today feels good
Soul sista
today feels good
soul sista

And today feels good soul sista

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Trapped in the Drive Thru

Al" Yankovic's epic 11-minute long parody of R. Kelly's "Trapped In The Closet" - from his latest album "Straight Outta Lynwood."

Thursday, April 26, 2007

Japanese fooled in poodle scam

Thursday Apr 26 20:55 AEST
Thousands of Japanese have been swindled in a scam in which they were sold Australian and British sheep and told they were poodles.

Flocks of sheep were imported to Japan and then sold by a company called Poodles as Pets, marketed as fashionable accessories, available at $1,600 each.

That is a snip compared to a real poodle which retails for twice that much in Japan.

The scam was uncovered when Japanese moviestar Maiko Kawamaki went on a talk-show and wondered why her new pet would not bark or eat dog food.

She was crestfallen when told it was a sheep.

Then hundreds of other women got in touch with police to say they feared their new "poodle" was also a sheep.

One couple said they became suspicious when they took their "dog" to have its claws trimmed and were told it had hooves.

Japanese police believe there could be 2,000 people affected by the scam, which operated in Sapporo and capitalised on the fact that sheep are rare in Japan, so many do not know what they look like.

"We launched an investigation after we were made aware that a company were selling sheep as poodles," Japanese police said, the The Sun reported.

"Sadly we think there is more than one company operating in this way.

"The sheep are believed to have been imported from overseas - Britain, Australia."

Many of the sheep have now been donated to zoos and farms.

Saturday, April 21, 2007

My Generation

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Why So Many Violent Crimes Now?

ALL crimes are evil. But mindless or purposeless crimes are harder to understand. The fact that they are often without an obvious motive baffles investigators. With mass communication becoming much more effective in recent years, such appalling crimes are known to millions, or even billions, within hours. A report published by the World Health Organization states that “violence leaves no continent, no country and few communities untouched.”

Even places that were considered relatively safe in past years have recently seen more instances of senseless acts of violence. For example, Japan has long had a low rate of violent crime. However, in Ikeda, in June 2001, a man carrying a butcher knife walked into a school and began stabbing and slashing. Within 15 minutes he killed 8 children and wounded 15 others. When this is added to other reports from Japan, such as those of young people killing total strangers just for the thrill of it, one gets the clear sense that things have changed.

Even in countries where crime rates have been high, certain senseless acts have caused public revulsion. This was true after the September 11, 2001, attack on the World Trade Center in New York. Psychologist Gerard Bailes made this comment: “It turns the world into a totally alien, dangerous place in which we cannot predict what is going to happen.”

Why Do They Do It?

There is no one factor that explains all the varied acts of senseless violence. What makes some crimes more difficult to understand is their irrational nature. For example, it is hard to comprehend why a person would walk up to total strangers and stab them to death or why someone would drive by a house and shoot at random.

Some claim that violence is inherent in people. Others argue that senseless crimes cannot be explained as an unavoidable part of human nature.—See the box “Doomed to Violence?”

Many experts believe that there are a host of factors and circumstances that are catalysts inclining people to commit irrational, violent acts. A report published by the FBI (Federal Bureau of Investigation) Academy in the United States goes so far as to say: “Homicide is not the act of a sober, sane, individual.” Some authorities would take issue with the wording of that statement. Nevertheless, many agree with what it implies. For some reason the thinking of those committing senseless crimes is not normal. Something has affected their reasoning to the point that they will do the unthinkable. What contributing factors move people to do such things? Let us look at several possibilities that experts have mentioned.

Breakdown of Family Life

Marianito Panganiban, a spokesman for the National Bureau of Investigation in the Philippines, was asked by an Awake! writer about the background of those who commit extreme crimes. He commented: “They come from broken families. They lack care and love. There is a breakdown of people’s moral fiber in the sense that they have no guidance and then they go astray.” Many researchers suggest that poor family relationships and violent family backgrounds are common among aggressive criminals.

The U.S. National Center for the Analysis of Violent Crime issued a report listing factors that could identify youths who might commit lethal violence in school. The following family factors were included: a turbulent parent-child relationship, parents who are unable to recognize problems in their children, a lack of closeness, parents who set few or no limits on a child’s conduct, and children who are extremely private, leading a double life and thus hiding a part of their life from their parents.

Today many children are victims of family breakup. Others have parents who have little time for them. Thousands of young ones have grown up with inadequate moral and family guidance. Some experts feel that such an environment may result in children’s not developing the ability to bond well with others, thus making it easier for them to commit crimes against fellow humans, often without remorse.

Hate Groups and Cults

Evidence suggests that some hate groups or cults have been a strong influence in the commission of certain crimes. In Indiana, U.S.A., a 19-year-old black man was walking home from a shopping mall. Moments later, he was lying on the side of the street with a bullet in his brain. He had been shot by a young man who picked him at random. Why? The assassin allegedly wanted to gain membership in a white-supremacist organization and to earn a spiderweb tattoo for having killed a black person.

The 1995 nerve-gas attack in a Tokyo subway; the Jonestown, Guyana, mass suicide; and the deaths in Switzerland, Canada, and France of 69 members of the Order of the Solar Temple were all cult inspired. These examples illustrate the powerful influence that certain groups have had on the thinking of some people. Charismatic leaders have got people to do the “unthinkable” by tempting them with some supposed benefit.

The Mass Media and Violence

Some point to evidence that various forms of modern communication may encourage aggressive conduct. Regular exposure to violence depicted on television, in movies, in video games, and on the Internet is said to desensitize the conscience and inspire violent crimes. Dr. Daniel Borenstein, president of the American Psychiatric Association, stated: “At this time there are more than 1,000 studies based on more than 30 years of research demonstrating a causal connection between media violence and aggressive behavior in some children.” Before a U.S. Senate committee, Dr. Borenstein testified: “We are convinced that repeated exposure to entertainment violence in all its forms has significant public health implications.”—See the box “Computer-Game Violence—A Doctor’s Viewpoint.”

Specific cases are often cited to show that this is true. In the case of the triggerman involved in the cold-blooded murder of a couple watching the sunrise on a beach, mentioned in the preceding article, prosecutors presented evidence that the thrill killing was inspired by repeated viewing of a violent movie. In a school shooting where 15 people were killed, the two student perpetrators were said to have spent hours each day playing violent video games. Additionally, they repeatedly watched movies glorifying violence and killing.

Drugs

In the United States, the rate of murder committed by teenagers tripled during an eight-year period. What do authorities point to as one factor? Gangs, particularly gangs involved with crack cocaine. Of over 500 recent homicides in Los Angeles, California, “the police said 75 percent were gang related.”

A report published by the FBI Academy makes this statement: “Drugs are present in an inordinately high number of homicide cases.” Some people whose thinking is warped by drug use kill while under the influence. Others defend their drug trafficking by using violence. Obviously, drugs are a powerful factor influencing people to commit horrendous acts.

Easy Access to Destructive Weapons

As mentioned in the preceding article, a lone gunman in Tasmania, Australia, killed 35 people. He wounded 19 others. The man was armed with military-style semiautomatic weapons. This led many to conclude that easy access to such weapons is another factor in the rise of violent crimes.

One report shows that there were only 32 gun murders in Japan in 1995, most involving gangsters killed by other gangsters. In contrast, the United States had more than 15,000 gun murders. Why the difference? Japan’s stringent gun ownership laws have been cited by some as a reason.

People’s Inability to Cope

When hearing of certain heinous acts, some may react by saying, ‘That person must be crazy!’ However, not all individuals committing such crimes are mentally deranged. Many, though, do have difficulties in coping with life. Experts point to personality defects that may lead to extreme acts. Among them are the following: learning and social deficiencies; negative effects of physical or sexual abuse; antisocial characteristics; hatred of a certain group, such as women; lack of remorse when doing wrong; and a desire to manipulate others.

Whatever their problem is, some become so consumed by their difficulty that their thinking is altered, and this can lead them to commit strange acts. An example is a nurse who abnormally craved attention. She injected little children with a muscle relaxant that caused their breathing to stop. Then she basked in the attention she was given as she “saved” each child. Unfortunately, she was not able to get them all to resume breathing. She was convicted of murder.

It is obvious from the foregoing that a combination of factors makes people inclined to commit violent crimes. However, our list would be incomplete if we did not consider one more very important factor.

The Bible’s Answer

The Bible helps us to understand what is happening now and why people act in such extreme ways. It accurately describes attitudes we commonly see. For example, the list found at 2 Timothy 3:3, 4 states that people would have “no natural affection” and that they would be “without self-control, fierce, without love of goodness,” and “headstrong.” In another Bible book, Jesus was quoted as saying: “The love of the greater number will cool off.”—Matthew 24:12.

The Bible says: “In the last days critical times hard to deal with will be here.” (2 Timothy 3:1) Yes, what we see is evidence that we are living at the end of the present system of things. Conditions, along with people’s attitudes, are on a downhill slide. Can we expect an immediate solution? The Bible answers: “Wicked men and impostors will advance from bad to worse.”—2 Timothy 3:13.

Does this mean that mankind is doomed to an endless cycle of vicious violence and escalating crime? Let us examine that question in our next article.

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DOOMED TO VIOLENCE?

Some argue that the propensity for violence or killing has always been inborn in humans. Supporters of evolution maintain that we come from wild animals and have simply inherited their violent characteristics. Such theories would leave us doomed to an endless cycle of violence from which there is no hope of escape.

However, there is much evidence to the contrary. The theories mentioned above do not explain why in different cultures there are wide variations in frequency and types of violence. They do not indicate why in some cultures responding with violence seems to be the norm, whereas other societies report very little violence, with murder almost nil. Psychoanalyst Erich Fromm exposed cracks in the theory that we inherit aggression from primates by pointing out that although some of them are violent as a result of physical needs or for self-protection, humans are the only ones who have been known to kill for the sheer thrill of killing.

In their book The Will to Kill—Making Sense of Senseless Murder, Professors James Alan Fox and Jack Levin state: “Some individuals are more prone to violence than others, yet free will still exists. The will to kill, though governed by numerous internal and external forces, still includes choice and human decision making, and thus accountability and culpability.”

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COMPUTER-GAME VIOLENCE—A DOCTOR’S VIEWPOINT

Dr. Richard F. Corlin, past president of the American Medical Association, delivered a speech to a group of graduating doctors in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, U.S.A. In it he spoke about computer games that encourage violence. Some of these games award points for flesh wounds, more for a body shot, and even more for a head shot. Blood spurts out, and brain tissue spatters all over.

Dr. Corlin commented that children are not allowed to drive, not allowed to drink alcoholic beverages, and not allowed to smoke when they are too young. Then he said: “But we do let them be trained to be shooters at an age when they have not yet developed their impulse control and have none of the maturity and discipline to safely use the weapons they are playing with. . . . We need to teach our children from the beginning that violence [has] consequences—serious consequences—all the time.”

Sadly, instead of being taught that crime has consequences, children are often the innocent victims of violent crimes. Statistics show that gunfire kills ten children a day in the United States. Dr. Corlin says: “The United States leads the world—in the rate at which its children die from firearms.” His conclusion? “Gun violence is a threat to the public health of our country. This is a fact.”

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FACTORS CONTRIBUTING TO VIOLENT CRIMES

Many experts feel that the following can contribute to senseless crimes:

  • Family breakdown
  • Hate groups, extremists
  • Dangerous cults
  • Violence in entertainment
  • Exposure to actual violence
  • Abuse of drugs
  • Inability to cope with problems
  • Easy access to destructive weapons
  • Certain conditions of mental illness

- Awake July 8, 2003 pages 5-9

*** Awake 7/8/2003 pp. 10-11 A Realistic Solution—Is It Possible? ***

A Realistic Solution—Is It Possible?

CRIME appears to be a permanent fixture of modern society. Despite well-meaning efforts of social workers, law-enforcement personnel, and criminal rehabilitation professionals, the world is becoming a more dangerous place. Is there a solution?

The Bible shows that a big change is coming. This will not come through the efforts of human governments. All human rulers are limited, no matter how noble their goals. They just do not have the power and resources to root out the cause of crime or to establish a permanently secure system.

The change the Bible speaks of will be implemented by our Creator. As the Maker of the universe, he has the power and the legal right to do what humans cannot. The Bible describes him as “the One who is reducing high officials to nothing, who has made the very judges of the earth as a mere unreality . . . , he also being vigorous in power.” (Isaiah 40:23-26) What changes does God promise, and how do these give us real hope for a better world?

Psalm 37:10 informs us of God’s promise: “Just a little while longer, and the wicked one will be no more; and you will certainly give attention to his place, and [the wicked] will not be.” God intends to get rid of those who are incorrigibly wicked and have no intention of changing. However, he will not destroy all people. To those who are willing to become meek, humble, and peaceable, the psalmist promises: “Hope in Jehovah and keep his way, and he will exalt you to take possession of the earth. When the wicked ones are cut off, you will see it.” With the wicked ones gone, those remaining will enjoy an “abundance of peace”—a world free from crime of any sort.—Psalm 37:11, 34.

Change of Mind and Heart Needed

Simply destroying the wicked and saving good people is not enough to resolve the problem of crime once and for all. Crime is often the result of improper training of people’s hearts and minds. However, that is where God’s government will excel. Practical instruction and education will be provided in order to train people so that they will love righteousness. Isaiah 54:13 says: “All your sons will be persons taught by Jehovah, and the peace of your sons will be abundant.”

The results will be truly satisfying! The Bible speaks pictorially of the changes in people who may once have had animallike characteristics. It says: “The wolf will actually reside for a while with the male lamb, and with the kid the leopard itself will lie down, and the calf and the maned young lion and the well-fed animal all together.” Why? “Because the earth will certainly be filled with the knowledge of Jehovah as the waters are covering the very sea.” (Isaiah 11:6, 9) However, you and your family do not need to wait for the future for such changes. How so?

You Can Benefit Now

There are people who are now making the changes necessary to prepare for a crime-free world. They are already putting on a new personality, the type of personality that God wants in people who will live in his new world. (2 Peter 3:13) They do this by applying Bible principles in their lives. Notice the interesting description the Bible gives: “You should be made new in the force actuating your mind, and should put on the new personality which was created according to God’s will in true righteousness and loyalty.”—Ephesians 4:23, 24.

Colossians 3:12-14 further describes the positive qualities that many honesthearted individuals are cultivating now. It says: “As God’s chosen ones, holy and loved, clothe yourselves with the tender affections of compassion, kindness, lowliness of mind, mildness, and long-suffering. Continue putting up with one another and forgiving one another freely if anyone has a cause for complaint against another. Even as Jehovah freely forgave you, so do you also. But, besides all these things, clothe yourselves with love, for it is a perfect bond of union.”

Would you like to receive help to put on the new Christian personality? Millions of people around the world are already doing so with the help of Jehovah’s Witnesses. At meetings held regularly in Kingdom Halls, and at large conventions, even people who were violent criminals have learned how to put on a peaceful personality. If you would like to benefit from such an excellent Bible educational program, do not hesitate to contact the publishers of this magazine. They will be happy to help you to be among the people who are preparing now to live in God’s crime-free new world.

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Too cold

I want spring to come and stay. It's been in the 40s all week and I'm sick of it. April shouldn't be this cold.

Fri
Partly Cloudy
H 56°
L 39°

Sat
Chance of Rain
H 51°
L 39°

Sun
Rain
H 53°
L 40°

Mon
Chance of Rain
H 50°
L 40°

Tue
Partly Cloudy
H 54°
L 42°

Sunday, April 08, 2007

So much to say...Sitting at the BMA on Saturday

There's something about an art museum and Dave Matthews that seems so right. Sitting on the second floor of the Baltimore Museum of Art listening to Dave Matthews really got my juices flowing. My sister was doing a sketch for homework while I was working on my database project.

I really think I've bitten off more than I can chew. I wrote a proposal for a website for a local theatre company. I think that given more time and resources, I could actually pull this off. I chose this project with someone in mind and I really wish that I could implement this for her. I really wish that I had someplace to put this project after I finish it. My web hosting site doesn't support Cold Fusion.

This week, I have to make two pages of my site. They only need to be static pages...the database driven pages will come later.

http://nova.umuc.edu/~ct498a07/blackboxtheatre/index.cfm

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Lost



Lost Rhapsody 2: Electric Boogaloo

TGISP

I'm glad it's spring break. I'm mean, it's no fun being sick during spring break, but mentally, I needed this time away. I feel like I've been carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders for a while now. I've been unable to express myself, my feelings fully.

For a while, I've felt like I've not been present in my relationships...not fully present. I've spread myself so thin. So this time away, this time alone is good for me. It gives me time to regroup. Time to re-evaluate.

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Spring Break is Here

I don't know why I got this, but I haven't seen it in 20 years and I really did love this show.

Monday, April 02, 2007

Hollywood Arms



I wish I could see this again.

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Star Trek Voyager

I recently discovered that I can order TV series DVDs from Blockbuster online. I decided to start with a favorite show of mine, Star Trek Voyager. I've finished season one and am on disc four of season two.


I'm hoping to finish watching all seven season by the end of the summer. It would be really nice if I could buy the whole set from Amazon.

Spring Break

It's spring break time. This week, I'm off from work. I don't have any plans to go away, but I do have plenty to do.

Monday - Memorial of Jesus' Death

After sundown on Monday, my congregation will commemorate Jesus's death and how his ransom benefits us all.
http://www.watchtower.org/e/19980315/article_01.htm


The rest of the week, I hope to get my apt in order. I've also checked out some DVDs from the library. They should keep me occupied. I've been exhausted for weeks, so I'm hoping that this week offers the rest that I need.

Friday, March 16, 2007

Graduation

For some reason, I've been asked how many classes I have left before graduation at least three to four times a day every day this week. To settle the issue, here are the proposed classes I need for the rest of my UMUC days:

18 CREDITS LEFT

CIVIC RESPONSIBILITY
IFSM 304 Ethics in the Information Age

ELECTIVES
CMIT 368 Windows Server 2003
IFSM 438 Project Management
CMIT 265 Networking Essentials

MAJOR REQUIREMENTS
IFSM 310 Software & Hardware Concepts

SOCIAL SCIENCE
GVPT 170 American Government

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

A couple of things

Ok, let's start with LOST... I'm curious about the revelation about Claire and Jack having the same father. This has been rumored on the LOST message boards for over a year. I wonder if this was planned long ago or if it was a fan-influenced decision. Also, how cool is it that Jin is starting to use his english. Lastly, what is up with John Locke? He's just one mistake after another. Does he need Jack to help keep him balanced? Ever since Jack was taken, Locke has made one mistake after another. We might have to acts of stupidity as "Lockes".

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The second thing. I'm woefully behind in my Cold Fusion class. But tonight, I started my quest to get caught up. I still have a lot to do, but with Spring Break next week, hopefully I can get caught up. I'm doing a box office website and I really need to get my design started.

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I still have a poem stuck in my head. I can't get it together. I keep getting parts of it, but not enough to put down on paper. The theme is longing in all its forms. I'll keep you posted.

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I'm going to bed now. Night y'all :)

Monday, March 12, 2007

Watching TV with Janet

Wouldn't it be cool to sit on your couch and watch TV with a celebrity and it not be a big deal?

Last night I dreamt that Janet Jackson was at my house watching TV in my living room. We talked about all kinds of things, but it wasn't like she was a big celebrity. We talked about our families and the importance of reading the bible daily.

Thursday, March 08, 2007

You Tube

You can find just about any thing you want on You Tube... most of it is the dumbest video you'll ever see. But sometimes you find something special that you would probably never see.

Broadway on Broadway

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

No carved images...

Here's the thing... I was driving along, minding my own business this morning when I drove by a restaurant with a golden cow on the roof...

A golden cow...
A golden calf...

Didn't we learn anything from the Israelites?

Saturday, March 03, 2007

My poor baby

I went down to College Park today to find my classroom for a class I'm taking next week. After leaving, I was driving home and my mother, who was behind noticed that my license plate was gone. Some maniac down at College Park stole my license plate. The worse part is that since I reported it, I can't drive my car until I get new tags.

My baby was violated :(

Friday, March 02, 2007

YMC

I went to see Yo Mama's Cookin' tonight and it was the hardest I've laughed in a long time. Improv Rocks!

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Notebook woes

Those of you who know me will understand what I'm about to say. It's week five of classes and I still don't have a notebook for either of my classes. I'm not sure why I haven't done it yet. I took the time to find two binders, cleaned them out, found dividers, really made an effort to get started on the right foot.

I looked at my desk today and realized that I have gone far beyond procrastination. It not that I don't have the I don't have time to set up the notebook. I just haven't had it in me to do it. You would think that 12 years of secondary education would've stuck with me. Rule #1, have a notebook, organize your homework.

Instead my desk is chaos and I'm always doing homework at the last minute.

Here's the really hilarious part of all this... I just got contact information for the student that I'm going to coach. Thankfully, she'll never see my desk. Hopefully, she doesn't need help setting up a notebook or else she might flunk out of school.

Monday, February 26, 2007

And the Oscar goes to...

From http://www.indiana.edu/~bfca/features/oscars.html

Feature Presentation:
African American Oscar Winners
The Academy of Motion Picture Arts and Sciences Awards, considered the most prestigious annual award ceremony for film in the United States, has a long and distinguished history of recognizing outstanding achievement in film. Unfortunately, their recognition of African American actors, actresses, and filmmakers has been few and far between.

The first African American to win an Academy Award was Hattie McDaniel for her performance as "Mammy" in Gone With the Wind (1939). Despite this breakthrough fairly early in the history of the Academy Awards, it would be another twenty-four years before another African American was once again honored (with the exception of the Honorary Award given to James Baskett in 1948 for his performance as "Uncle Remus" in Disney's Song of the South). When Sidney Poitier (who was born in Miami and later moved to the U.S. at the age of 15, but is Bahamian and thus also considered a Caribbean black) won a Best Actor Oscar for his performance in Lilies of the Field (1963) in the midst of the Civil Rights Movement in 1964, many hoped that the playing field was finally becoming more level. Unfortunately, it would be nineteen more years before another black actor won an Academy Award.

Several black actors and one black actress won Oscars for supporting roles in the 1980s and 1990s, however none won for a leading role again until the 2002 Academy Awards. In that year, African Americans actually won both of the top acting awards. Halle Berry became the first African American woman to win the Best Actress award for her performance in Monster's Ball (2001), and after being nominated twice before for a leading role, Malcolm X (1992) and The Hurricane (1999), Denzel Washington finally won for his portrayal of a dirty cop in Training Day (2001).

The 2002 Academy Awards also featured an Honorary Lifetime Achievement Award given to Sidney Poitier. With three Oscars awarded to black actors, some declared that discrimination in the movie industry was a thing of the past and that African Americans had finally made it, while others maintained that progress was being made but there were still too many obstacles for people of color to overcome.

Is Hollywood still conducting business in black and white, or is green the predominant color of the Film Industry? In other words, does the image of African Americans that Hollywood most frequently presents reflect what makes the most money with national and international audiences? If so, what can be done to combat this problem in order to secure more worthwhile roles for black actors and actresses and projects for black filmmakers?

We encourage you to make up your own mind by taking a look at the articles, books, websites, and films listed at the bottom of this web page.

Black Academy Award Winners:
1. Hattie McDaniel, Best Actress in a Supporting Role for Gone With the Wind (1939).
2. James Baskett, Honorary Award "for his able and heart-warming characterization of Uncle Remus, friend and story teller to the children of the world in Walt Disney's Song of the South" (1946). [awarded at the 1948 Academy Awards Ceremony]
3. Sidney Poitier, Best Actor in a Leading Role for Lilies of the Field (1963).
4. Isaac Hayes, Best Music, Original Song for "Theme from Shaft" from Shaft (1971).
5. Louis Gossett, Jr., Best Actor in a Supporting Role for An Officer and a Gentleman (1982).
6. Irene Cara, Best Music, Original Song for "Flashdance...What a Feeling" from Flashdance (1983).
7. Prince, Best Music, Original Song Score for Purple Rain (1984).
8. Stevie Wonder, Best Music, Original Song for "I Just Called to Say I Loved You" from The Woman in Red (1984).
9. Lionel Richie, Best Music, Original Song for "Say You, Say Me" from White Nights (1985).
10. Herbie Hancock, Best Music, Original Score for 'Round Midnight (1986).
11. Denzel Washington, Best Actor in a Supporting Role for Glory (1989).
12. Whoopi Goldberg, Best Actress in a Supporting Role for Ghost (1990).
13. Cuba Gooding, Jr., Best Actor in a Supporting Role for Jerry Maguire (1996).
14. Halle Berry, Best Actress in a Leading Role for Monster's Ball (2001).
15. Denzel Washington, Best Actor in a Leading Role for Training Day (2001).
16. Sidney Poitier, Honorary Lifetime Achievement Award "for his extraordinary performances and unique presence on the screen and for representing the industry with dignity, style and intelligence." [awarded at the 2002 Academy Awards Ceremony]
17. Jamie Foxx, Best Actor in a Leading Role for Ray (2004).
18. Morgan Freeman, Best Actor in a Supporting Role for Million Dollar Baby (2004)
19. Jordan Houston, Cedric Coleman, and Paul Beauregard [aka Three 6 Mafia], Best Music, Original Song for "It's Hard Out Here for a Pimp" from Hustle & Flow (2005).
20. Jennifer Hudson, Best Actress in a Supporting Role for Dreamgirls
21. Forestt Whitiker, Best Actor in a Lead Role for the Last King of Scotland.

Sunday, February 11, 2007

The Grammys - Dixie Chicks

The Dixie ChicksWho would've thought that 4 years after the now infamous statement, Natalie Maines and the Dixie Chicks would walk off with grammys for Record of the year, Song of the year, Best Country Performance By A Duo Or Group With Vocal, Best Country Album, and Album of the Year. I guess all the people who said they couldn't come back and be as strong as they were before were wrong.

It's ironic that they won for best country album of the year when you stop to think about the fact that country radio has all but abandoned the Dixie Chicks. Country radio, although very 'American' and family oriented, has this annoying thing about it. They believe in free speech as long as you say something they agree with. Country radio didn't like it when Natalie Maines spoke out against the president, like most non-celeb americans. They destroyed DC cds in the streets, enacted full fledged boycotts of their musics and concerts. DC became personae non-gratae.

The chix weren't detered... they couldn't be held back. They went on tour to sold out crowds, they went on with their lives and came back to record probably one of the best albums of their careers. Emily Robson described it as "recording without a genre" and I really think that it was the most creative they've ever been because they weren't in a box. They could record the music they wanted to play and they were able to touch their listeners in a very special place in the process.

Four years ago after Natalie Maines made her now imfamous statement about our president, I wore a necklace to school that said "Dixie Chicks Rule". I remember walking by the Vice President of my area and he said to me, "Are you trying to get beat up?". I didn't understand why said that until I found out our administration (the college's that is) is headed up by a republican who appreciates republican values and republican dollars. So any talk or dissension against our country's president was probably not appreciated. But I wasn't saying anything about the political situation at the time. I was showing my love for the Dixie Chicks.

For me, it's always been about the music, never the politics. At the end of the day, Natalie, Emily, and Marti are artists and the world is better for having them in it.

Friday, February 09, 2007

Lonnnng week

I just finished up one of the most stressful weeks I've had in a long time. I've been working on a project for about a month now and (as with anything) effective planning would've helped things go a lot smoother.

I was very confident about my .asp skills before I started this project and I really had a game plan in mind. I probably should have have stuck with that or at least written my plan out so that all the obstacles could have been addressed in the beginning.

Last night, I started to do some work and I guess I was so tired from being up every night during the week. As I started to work, my chest started hurting in a way that can only be described as the kind of pain where you actually think about calling 911. My heart felt like it was going to explode in my chest. I think my body was telling me not do to any work and to just relax. So I got in the bed and read for a bit. Even though I got more sleep, I was still exhausted this morning.

So, I went to work, negotiated a day off for Monday and finished up a big portion of my project. There's still a lot to do this weekend. But I think I'll get through it.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Sleep Debt

It's amazing what a lack of sleep can do for the brain. They say that drving while you're sleepy is just as bad as driving while under the influence of alcohol or drugs.

Well, I've had better sense than to drive a lot the past couple of days. But i hveing doing a bunch of programming...It hasn't been going well at all.

I wish I could tell you more, but I'm too tired...

Monday, January 29, 2007

The Caveman

He's a bit surly and very depressed... but I think I love the caveman...

http://www.cavemanscrib.com

Friday, January 26, 2007

reflections

I had an interesting day today...

I slept well and got started on my day bright and early. But by 8:45, a sadness fell over me. It was overwhelming and a bit annoying. To make matters worse, I was told that I have become fixated on a bad situation.

But 11:00 I figured out what was wrong, outside of having a nearly impossible workload and a toxic working environment. My mood was chemical and I just needed to ride it out. I probably should've just gotten some chocolate.

Here's the deal. I some times lose focus of what's important. I also forget to just ask for help. I try to fix things that are beyond my grasp of control. Right now, for instance, I have projects that I think I can do, that is if I had more time. But I don't have time.

But here's the thing...

None of this matters this weekend. I can't spend this weekend worried about work. I really shouldn't worry about work beyond the end of the work day. I need to learn how to do that.

Cold Fusion

I need to learn Cold Fusion very quickly... like, over this weekend. I have a project to do and no clue how to do it. Now, don't laugh, but I bought Cold Fusion for Dummies and downloaded a tutorial from the Adobe site.

I'm hopeful today...

Check back with me in a few days to see if I still feel this way.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

First Snowfall

Today we got our first snow fall and it was beautiful. It wasn't alot, but it was just enough to give my neighborhood that winter wonderland look.

I love the look of snow, the smell of snow, the feel of snow. It's like home.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

My Chucks

If you go to www.converse.com, you can design your own chucks.


Here is my design:


Thursday, January 11, 2007

HCC Purple

Howard Community College
has gotten into the purple spirit.


Go Ravens!!!

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Stuck in my head

I have an idea for a poem stuck in my head... I can't quite pull it together and organize my thoughts. Each day it nags at my soul, desperate to escape the inner most parts of my head.

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Sunday Brunch

I hosted a gathering at my apt today... it was a brunch and although it was a lot of work preparing for it, I'm glad I did it. Having the friends over to see the new DVD, Organized to Share the Good News, was really a treat. To see all the work being done by Jehovah's Witnesses really helped me see just how united we are as a people.

This whole day made me think about how I can improve my service to Jehovah. Since I have three months off from school, I can use this time to improve my study habits and field ministry. I really want to do better because as 1 JOHN 5:3 says, " For this is what the love of God means, that we observe his commandments; and yet his commandments are not burdensome,. . ." So doing better is something I can do and should do.

So here's the plan:

I'm going to make some spiritual goals as far as studying for the meetings and for getting out in the ministry. I know I can achieve them, if I just make them a priority.

Saturday, January 06, 2007

Weird Dream

I had the weirdest dream last night.

I was at HCC and for the final performance of You're a Good Man, Charlie Brown, Sue, the Director, decided to let a few of the HCC employees join the cast for a couple of songs, sort of like background extras.

We started getting ready for our performance and something catastrophic happened. Within the span of about 5 minutes, we saw 4 planes crash within meters of the Black Box Theatre. It was an eery, apocalyptic feeling because no policeman or fire fighters came... we sat and watched as these planes just burst into flames or in some cases, crashed and skid down the street.

I remember thinking, there's no way to recover from this or even move on. But Sue rallied us together and we resumed preparing for the show. I think that she thought that doing the show would help start the healing process. It was hard because of what we had just seen, but we pulled it together. My sister Tiffany was there with me, so she got to be in the show with me.

Later that day, we went to find our family and we did, but the air in the city was different. We could tell that these events had affected people deeply. It was just as frightening as 9/11. It was a terrible feeling, knowing that so many people just lost their lives for no good reason. The whole world was in fear that this might happen again.

I remember thinking that this was a dream... I tried to wake up and I think that in my dream I woke up to see a swarm of gnats in my bedroom... Then I really woke up and the specter of what I had just dreamt about filled my head. What would I do if this really happened?

I still don't know.

Friday, January 05, 2007

Coding my brains out.

This is my entry for the night...

I'm so tired. I've been working on a project for about three weeks and it's finally coming to an end. It's odd because I've been working on this forever. I don't mean that in the sense of, "man, I've been working on this forever... I'll be glad when it's over". I mean it more like, "this is really pushing my higher brain functions. I feel like I'm really using my critical thinking skills."

It makes me want to learn more and use these skills more... almost. There's a danger in using new skills...if you use them, people will want you to use them again. You become a "go-to" person, which can have it's benefits. But most of the time, they don't.

I guess it's a good thing that I took some time off from school : )

Friday, December 29, 2006

Superman Returns

Again, the question is...why doesn't anyone realize that Clark Kent and Superman are the same person?

And...

Why does Metropolis look a whole lot like Manhattan?

Thursday, December 28, 2006

100 Questions

1) Are you in a complicated relationship?not really
2) Do you hate more than 3 people?I dislike the actions of more than 3 people. I try not to hate people.
4) How many houses have you lived in?
6, I think
5) Favorite candy bar?Take 6
6) Have you ever tripped someone?Yes
7) Least favorite school subject?Chemistry
8) How many pairs of shoes do you own?
About 10-15
9) Who do you like?In a platonic sense... all my friends
In a romantic sense.... wouldn't you like to know :(-
10) Have you ever thrown up in public?Unfortunately, yes... in Boston... in a mall
11) Name one thing that is always on your mind:Since I'm a woman, I always have at least two things on my mind
12) Favorite genre of music?It depends on my mood. I favor Pop/Rock and Country.
13) Whats your zodiac sign?I don't subscribe to the zodiac
14) What time were you born?4:10 pm
15) Do you like beer?Corona with a lime
16) Have you made a prank phone call?Yes.. I worked at Musicland in Columbia Mall in Maryland. I called the Musicland in Columbia Mall in Columbia South Carolina to cranked them. The manager was from a neighboring town and knew where to find me.
17) What is the most embarrassing CD you own? Joey Lawrence's First CD... It's still unopened.
18) Are you sarcastic?oh yeah, definitely?
19) wHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR?sage green
20) How many watches do you own?2, one that works and one that does not.
21) Summer or winter?winter
22) Is anyone in love with you?If they are, they haven't told me.
23) Favorite color to wear?sage green
24) Pepsi or Sprite?Sprite
26) Where is your second home?Mom's house
27) Have you ever slapped someone?I don't remember
29) How many lights are in your bedroom? 1
30) How many video games do you own?I have an Atari FLashback 2.0... so how ever many games came with that.
31.) First pet you owned?Cat
32) Ever had braces?No
33) Do looks matter?They shouldn't... but they do... at least in the beginning.
34) Do you use chapstick?Sure
35) Name 3 teachers from middle school:Ms. Wright, ..... I've blocked out those years... the only reason I remember Mrs. Wright is because she was my 11th grade gym teacher too...
36) American Eagle or Abercrombie?Never shopped at either
37) Are you too forgiving?Not sure, I don't think so.
38) How many children do you want?Depends on the day you ask me... most day, I don't want any.
39) Do you own something from Hot Topic?Not any more...
40) Favorite breakfast meal?depends on the day...
41) Do you own a gun?Hell no
43) When was the last time you cried?Today... stupid Clean House show
44) What did you do last night?Watched TV
45) Olive Garden?I think I've only been there once...was that were we ate Carrie?
46) Have you ever called your teacher mommy?Yes.. .and her name was Michelle. It was kindergarten
47) Have you ever been in a castle? I don't think so
48) Nicknames?JJ, Jules Verne, Black Girl, Pookie, JulieGirl
50) Ever been to Kentucky?No...
52) Are you thinking about somebody right now?Yes... Darn you Carrie for sending this to me.
53) Ever called somebody Boo?Yeah
54) do you smoke?No
55) Do you own a diamond ring?Not yet
56) are you happy with your life right now?somewhat... but there's always room for improvement.
57) Do you like your hair?Nope, I want to get it cut with side swept bangs
58) Does anyone have a crush on you?see #22
60) What were you doing in May of 1994?Working at Musicland and dating Curtis.
61) Do you own a Backstreet Boys CD?Not any more
62) Mcdonalds or Wendys?McDonalds
63) Do you love yourself?mostly
64) Are you closer to your mother or father?Mother
65) Favorite physical feature of the preferred sex?I like men's butts... not too big...not too small
66) Are you afraid of the dark?I plead the 5th amendment
67) Have you ever eaten paste? Nope
68) Do you own a webcam?no
69) Have you ever stripped?no
71) Are you religious?Yeah
72) Do you chat on AIM often?everyday...now I use it at work
73) Pringles or Lays?depends on my mood
74) Have you ever broken someones heart?Yes
75) Full house or brady bunch?Bradys
77) Did you like your middle school guidance counselor?I don't know... I don't know if I had one 78) Has anyone ever called you a tease?Yes
79) Do you have any pets?no
80) do you own a car?Yes
81) Can you cook?Yup
82) 3 things that annoy you?liars, people who can't double click, Tyra Banks
83)Do you text message alot?Yeah, mostly Marie and Carrie
84) Money or love?Love can't pay the light bill... sorry to sound heartless.
85)Do you have any scars?YUP, got two of them within a span of a year

86) What do you want more than anything right now?Someone to talk to
87) Do you enjoy scary movies?I don't.. I think that most of them come out of demonic minds
88) Relationships or one night stands?Relationships
89) Big Red or Juiicy Fruit??I can't chew gum any more
90) Do you enjoy greasy food?depends...
91) Have you seen all the Rocky movies?Uh, no
92) Do you own a box of crayons?not anymore
94) Who was the last person you said i love you to?I don't remember... I don't say it often.
95) Who was the last person that made you mad?I don't get mad often, but the last person who really really mad me mad was ... I told her off... and I still have my job.
96) Who was the last person that made you cry?I don't let people make me cry... so I can't tell you who that would've been.
97) Who was the last person that made you laugh?Tracy cracks me up all the time.
98) Who was the last person that texted you?Casey thinks she did... but I never got the msg.... the last one that actually came through was from Keia.
99) Who was the last person that called you?My Dad
100) Whats your ringtone?SexyBack
101) Who do you love?Daniel Dae Kim... Just kidding... I love my friends and family... I don't have a person that I love in a romantic sense.

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

Missing Mexico

Yesterday I was talking to my mother about going to Mexico. She asked me if I was going to go back to Mexico and for the first time, I said no. I didn't mean that I never want to go to Mexico because I do... I want to go there for my honeymoon, if I ever get married.

But the next time I go, I don't want to go on a study abroad trip. I would love to go to Mexico and just explore... Oddly enough, when I think about going back, I actually think about back-packing and soaking up the history and culture of the country.

I really do miss Mexico. Everytime I drink camomile tea, I think of Mexico. It almost feels like homesickness. I want to go and see my people...my family.

Best Line of the year

During a recent television appearance, former Vice President, Al Gore made the following statement:

"Justin Timberlake said that he's bringing sexy back... well, here I am !"

Saturday, December 23, 2006

Value

I guess I haven't had much to say lately. Keeping up with this blog has become a bit of chore for me. I feel like I have nothing of value to say anymore. It's probably because I've been so busy and haven't had a lot of time to be alone with my own thoughts.

I just finished the fall semester. I took Text and Graphics Integration and Web Site Management. I got A's in both classes although neither class was as easy as I had I had hoped. I have to admit that even though I have a plan to finish my degree in the next year, it feels like it's going to take forever. People at work encourage me, but they don't realize that this isn't as easy as it seems. I have so many things going on in my life. I never feel like I have enough hours in the day. One of the worse things to hear is "you're young...this is the best time to finish your degree. Then you can get your Master's." What people don't realize is that I don't live at home with no bills. I have other responsibilities in my life and going to school isn't my sole obligation...if you can even call it an obligation. It's more like a burden that I've put on myself... a burden that will ultimately achieve one thing; an improved status at work.

It's sad to think that people are not valued unless they have a certain degree. I mean, people tell me how much they appreciate what I do and they have no problem asking me to do training in this or that. It's like, they have no problem tapping into my knowledge for free. However, to pay me for training or teaching, that's out of the question, even though I know more than some lead instructors. And it's not just me. There are plenty of people who are rapped of their talents and I'm surprised that more people aren't disgruntled. Maybe they are quietly disgruntled.

I'm not at the disgruntled stage because I know that I have my job because of Jehovah's love for me and not because of anyone else. I guess that's why I don't worry about losing my job like other people. I try to look at my job as just that...a job...not my life. Some people are the job and they seem miserable. When your own self value is wrapped up in your job or in something outside yourself, I don't know how you can be happy. I've seen people like that and they don't seem happy. They try to make themselves "self-important" or worse yet they wait for others to assign them their value. I hoped to never be that way.

Thursday, December 21, 2006

Mariah Carey and Christmas

I think Mariah Carey is stalking me. Everytime I turn around I hear her singing "All I want for Christmas is you".

Enough already !

Sunday, November 26, 2006

Too many days with my thoughts

It's funny... I watched part of Steve Martin's version of Father of the Bride tonight. Then right after it went off on one channel, the original with Spencer Tracy and Elizabeth Taylor. The two movies are so closely performed with the new version almost holding completely to the original script. They're both good movies.

This weekend I was thinking... never a good thing, mind you. I always tend to overthink things. Having more than two days to myself allows me to fall into the "what if" trap. You know that trap...it's the one that makes you doubt every decision you ever made. Then if that's not bad enough, you start thinking about how you can fix past mistakes. It's such a vicious cycle that ends up leaving you feeling like you've just wasted a huge chunk of your life...which, by the way, you have.

Sunday, November 19, 2006

1st, 2nd, or 3rd person

Have you ever been talking to someone, listening to them tell a story about themselves? Depending on the type of story, the person may refer to themselves in the 1st, 2nd or 3rd person.

3rd Person
When a person refers to his/herself by their given name.

example: "When I was a child, I said, "Blanche, you can be anything you want to be"".
Why are you calling yourself by your name? Explain that to me. Your name is supposed to be used by other people.

1st Person
When a person uses the pronoun "I" in a story.

Example: "I went to the store and bought a vat of butter and a loaf of bread".
This is normal and generally accepted as the way to talk about oneself.

2nd person
When a person uses the pronoun "you" in a story, but "you" isn't someone else.

Example: When asked about her flying plane ride, Jennifer responded, "It was weird.. I mean, you sit there and you wait and wonder if everything is going to be alright. It was the most terrifying thing you can go through when you realize just how high up you really are.""

Here's the thing about using the 2nd person. Using the 2nd is a way of letting people into your life, but still keep them at a distance. It's also a way to acknowledge who you are without outwardly owing it. You often find people using the 2nd person when sharing deeply personal feelings. Using "you" allows the person to peek around the emotional wall of protection that keeps them safe from truly connecting with another person. We're all guilty of it at one time or another and I can't really decide if it's a bad thing.

Friday, November 17, 2006

TADA!!!

We finally finished it! The new Howard Community College website has arrived.




http://www.howardcc.edu/

Can't Be Stopped

artist: Janet Jackson lyrics
title: Can't Be Stopped
album: The Velvet Rope

Nothing's gonna stop us
We can't be stopped

I know that it's not been easy
Trying to make it in this crazy world
People 'round you try to stop you
Stomp you saying that you don't belong

You must remember that
We were born with blood of kings and queens
And can't be stopped
Stay stronger my sister you can't be stopped
No, you can't be stopped

I know that sometimes
You get to feelin' I've given up on you
The pressure seems to, to defeat you
Beat you when you feel you can't go on

You must remember that
You were born with blood of kings and queens
And can't be stopped
Stay stronger my brother you can't be stopped
No, you can't be stopped

Don't ever let nobody tell you you ain't strong enough
Strong enough, don't let nobody tell you you ain't
Strong enough, don't let nobody tell you

You know that I will be right here
To remind you that we need
Togetherness, 'cause lost pride
Has no room, if you don't forget
Where you come from

Monday, November 06, 2006

Election Day

Tomorrow is election day and while, I'm not at all interested in who wins or loses, I will be glad to see the end of the campaign commercials. They are so deceptive and misleading. I don't know of any other industry where in order to get a job, you have to discredit the other applicants.

Can you imagine...

Interviewer: "So why do you want to be a web designer for our company?"

Applicant: "Well, don't you think it's time for a change? Your current web designer, sides with the network engineer in restricting access to key services to the web community. And while there are people who can't afford dial up internet, your web designer keeps accepting a yearly raise. Can you take four more years of this? Hire me!"

It's completely ridiculous.

Monday, October 30, 2006

My neighbors

I can't prove it, but I think my neighbor is a twin. She looks slightly different to me every other day. I want to ask her, but I think that it would be rude.

The folks upstairs were fighting last night.
The folks downstair were making up.

I didn't get much sleep last night.

I have more to say, but am too tired to type it out.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Seasons change

It's been cold lately...really cold. I think it's time to break out the hat and scarf. In some respects, I like the winter time. Snow is great and really makes the neighborhood look quiet and peaceful.

But there are somethings that I don't like about winter. It gets darker earlier. When it gets windy, it's bitterly cold. The air feels like it's cutting into my skin.

I'm starting to talk myself out of liking the winter.

I wonder what's going to happen on our first snow day...

hmm....

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Project All-day

I spent the day working on a project. Once again, I found myself obsessed with an idea and had to see it to fruition.

Here are the project instructions:

In Project 2 you are going to write at least two paragraphs using one of the rhetorical devices, Metaphor or Metonymy, to help you make your point. For example ? the world is an egg. Explain to us how the world is an egg. An example of Metonymy ? John Smith, like many other rodeo riders, has great family values. What can we generalize about rodeo riders, or working men in general?

Next, find a graphic that continues the rhetorical idea, and layout a page with the story and the graphic. Use formatting and other text attributes that we have already discussed to make it easy for us to read the information.

I'm basically done, but I want to wait to post it.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

I can't breathe

Is it possible to sleep through a panic attack? I hope that it is because I'm exhausted, yet I feel like I'm still having a panic attack. It started early this morning with a very constricted feeling in my chest. Then my insides felt nervous and jittery and the phone wouldn't stop ringing. I have too much to do and not enough time to do it and as October 25 gets closer, my fears just increase. I don't know if I can finish everything by then and I really don't know what to do.

Except breathe...That's what Lucy, my physical therapist always says to me when I feel like I can't stretch my arm any farther. I feel like I can't stretch any farther than I am right at this moment.

I'm going to bed.

Monday, October 16, 2006

Reading

I want all the little children (and adults) that look to me as a role model and a pillar of society to close their eyes for the next minute or so...

Ok, are your eyes closed? If you said yes, you're lying....

Ok, for everyone else...

Reading is a necessary evil and I don't want to do it anymore...at least not for homework.

Ok, you can open your eyes now.

I know you read the whole thing. You're so disobedient.

Sunday, October 15, 2006

After 21 years, I finally get it

Fortress Around Your Heart
http://www.sting.com/discog/?v=so&a=1&id=137


Under the ruins of a walled city
Crumbling towers in beams of yellow light
No flags of truce, no cries of pity
The siege guns had been pounding through the night
It took a day to build the city
We walked through its streets in the afternoon
As I returned across the fields I'd known
I recognised the walls that I once made
I had to stop in my tracks for fear
Of walking on the mines I'd laid
And if I've built this fortress around your heart
Encircled you in trenches and barbed wire
Then let me build a bridge
For I cannot fill the chasm
And let me set the battlements on fire

Then I went off to fight some battle
That I'd invented inside my head
Away so long for years and years
You probably thought, or even wished that I was dead
While the armies all are sleeping
Beneath the tattered flag we'd made
I had to stop in my tracks for fear
Of walking on the mines I'd laid

And if I've built this fortress around your heart
Encircled you in trenches and barbed wire
Then let me build a bridge
For I cannot fill the chasm
And let me set the battlements on fire

This prison has now become your home
A sentence you seem prepared to pay
It took a day to build the city
We walked through its streets in the afternoon
As I returned across the lands I'd known
I recognised the fields where I'd once played
I had to stop in my tracks for fear
Of walking on the mines I'd laid

And if I've built this fortress around your heart
Encircled you in trenches and barbed wire
Then let me build a bridge
For I cannot fill the chasm
And let me set the battlements on fire

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Nostalgia

I finally got the cornrows out. I've had to wear them for about a month because I couldn't do my hair on my own. I can finally make a ponytail all by myself.

I'm also getting kind of nostalgic lately. I'm totally ashamed to admit this, but I was actually listening to Chicago's greatest hits the other day and I find myself listening to a lot of music that I listened to in high school. It seems strange to say that I've been out of high school for 15 years now, but alas, it has been that long.

I've been thinking a lot about those years and I realize one thing that I wish I had known then. I guess it's the one thing that I can pass on to tweens and teens alike. All the people who I concerned myself with or should I say over-concerned myself with are just a mere after thought in my memory. I don't know if I would recognize most of them if they approached me today. I only keep in touch with one person from high school, none from middle school, and only one from elementary school, but only because we were born best friends. We will always be connected as psuedo-sisters even if we only talk to each other about twice a year.

I guess what I'm saying is the people come in and out of our lives, for good or for bad. The key is figuring out which people are for the good and which are for bad.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Sun with many lies on LOST

From: http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/6867118/from/ET/

Going overboard: In flashback a young Sun was confronted by her father and blamed the maid for breaking a glass ballerina. Later, after her marriage to Jin, she cheated on him with her friend Jae, and once again she saw the disapproving face of her father looking on. Sun knows two things really well: domineering men and lies. Back on island time, Sun realized that Sayid was up to something. He had them build a second signal fire further north on the coast, presumably to signal Jack and the gang. When she called him out for lying about it, Sayid admitted that it was really a trap to draw the Others out. He told her that he needed her to lie to Jin about it. “Why?” she asked. “Because once the fire is lit, it will be too late to go back.” To keep her safe, Sun was sent to the boat while Sayid and Jin planned to overrun the search party. But the boat was where the real action was, with Sun taking out Colleen and going over the side of the sailboat in a hail of gunfire.


Where there’s smoke: Once the fire was set, Jin let Sun in on a little secret. He understands a lot more English than she thinks he does, and he was hip to the deception about the signal all along. As Sun translated to Sayid, “He knows I betrayed him.” But back in flashbackland, he didn’t pick up on the clues as easily. Sun’s father asked Jin to eliminate Jae for “stealing” from him. When Jin refused, he told him, “You married my daughter that makes you my son.” After staking out Jae’s place, Jin beat him up but couldn’t go through with killing him. He returned to his car and seconds later Jae’s body landed on the hood.


Something shocking: Mr. Friendly and Pickett (the Other who took a blood sample from Michael last season) escorted Kate and Sawyer to a labor camp. Pickett laid down the rules. “You talk to each other, you’re going to be shocked. You touch each other, you’re going to be shocked.” And he went on to explain that most any activity that didn’t involve rock harvesting would lead to a stun gun to the chest. But when Kate refused to go on until she saw Jack, she learned that it was Sawyer who got the jolt for her disobedience. After he recovered, Sawyer took a break from wheelbarrow duty and rushed to lock lips with Kate. It wasn’t all for romance sake, as he pulled some swift moves on the Others who charged him. He took Pickett’s shotgun, but before he could make any real threats, Juliet already had a pistol to Kate. Sawyer earned a few more volts for that one.


A familiar face: While Kate was working the quarry yard, someone called out to her from the brush. It was none other than Alex, Rousseau’s offspring and reluctant Other. Alex wanted to know if Kate had seen her friend in one of the cages. The exchange was brief, and later Kate and Sawyer were back in lock-up. Sawyer recalled their kiss and told her, “You taste like strawberries.” She added that he, in fact, tasted like fish biscuits. The post-chain gang flirting continued.


Let’s make a deal: Now Jack’s the captive and Ben’s the interrogator, and as Ben pointed that’s the exact opposite of the situation they were recently in. But Ben wanted to come clean with Jack and give him a proper introduction. “Hi. My name is Benjamin Lyons, and I’ve lived on this island all my life.” Explaining to Jack that they had access to the outside world, Ben ran through a list of missed events from back home: Bush’s reelection, Christopher Reeve’s death and the Red Sox World Series victory. He lost Jack on that last one until he showed him the win on television. Then Ben made an offer. “If you listen to me, and you trust me when the time comes, I’ll take you home.”

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Bluetooth

When I wear my new bluetooth headset, I feel like Uhura from Star Trek.

"Captain, we're getting a message from Starfleet Headquarters"

Monday, October 09, 2006

Time is on my side

Project #1 for my Graphic Design class:

Assignment: Project 1 - Meaning of text
As we have discussed text attributes such as size, position and orientation can help us navigate text and give it meaning. In this project the student will use those attributes to create a design. First choose a phrase, such as "Thinking outside the box" ; "What goes up must come down"; "Money makes the world go round" etc. Then input the phrase into a page layout program, creating separate text blocks for each of the words. By rotating, resizing and repositioning the words, try to create a design that will augment the meaning of the phrase. You may also make individual words or letters bold or italicized. Use only one font. Be creative. You may also break the words into individual letters if need be. Pay attention to all of your page space, not just the portion you think you are using.

My project:


My instructors comments: Great job! Good use of phrase to augment the meaning of the text. Good color choice and use of positioning the letters within the phrase. (Grade - 93%)

Some classmate comments:

#1 - Good Idea Julie. You actually inspired my project.
#2 - I think that the project looked very professional. I liked the use of color
and the way the words spread across the page. I also like the way the words
were transparent, making it easy for you too see behind them. Having said
that, I don't think it completely captured the 'time on your side' saying. I
think that making the words more vertical, may have helped.
#3 - I was able to get this right away. Good way to relay the message "time is on my side'!

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

References

I think that every book should have both the MLA-style and APA-style of referencing in the front of the book so that you know how to list it in a bibliography.

Don't you hate writing reports?

Saturday, September 23, 2006

An Evening with Carol Burnett


I wish I lived in Texas..

I've been Gilmored


I just got Gilmore Girls Season 6 in the mail and was mildly disappointed to find that there is on bonus material. The other thing that I realized was that the rift between Lorelei and Rory lasted entirely too long, 7 episodes to be exact. That's not including the summer. In Stars Hollow time, it lasted about 6 months. Amazon.com asked the all important question, "Can it be the Gilmore Girls if the Gilmore girls aren't together?"

Their splint got on my nerves after a while and I wondered how long Amy and Dan Pallidino were going to drag this out. But amazingly, because I love the writing, I still watched the show. When they added the April character, Luke's long lost daughter, that just threw another monkey wrench in the situation.

Don't get me wrong. I love the show. It's one of the only shows I look forward to watching each week besides Lost, of course. Season 7 of the Gilmore Girls starts September 26 on the CW, minus the Pallidinos. It'll be interesting to see how the characters develop this season and if they'll talk as fast.

Friday, September 22, 2006

A change gon' come

Sometimes change comes
and it's a breath of fresh air.

Sometimes change comes
and it brings the foul stench of disappointment.

Sometimes changes comes
when you need it
and it saves you from yourself.

Sometimes change comes
at just the wrong time
and someone needs saving from you.

The one thing about change
is that we all have to learn
to adjust and to accept and to move on.

After all the only thing
that is constant in our lives
is change.

Friday, September 15, 2006

Wide awake

It's 2:16 am and I'm still up doing work. I was exhausted when I got home, but somehow I've managed to stay awake. Whenever I get started on a project like this, my energy level goes up. It's almost obsessive, I can't go to sleep until the project's done...Mostly because my mind will work on it all night if I don't finish it.

Tomorrow is my last official day of leave, although I've been working most days since my accident. I'm not sure what it'll be like when I go back because my arm is still going to be in the sling. So I'll still be typing with one arm. I'm getting better at it, but I have to use spell check a lot more than before.

I start physical therapy next week. I'll know what days and how often on Tuesday, so don't ask me until Tuesday afternoon. I also don't know how long I'll be in this sling, nor do I know how long my recovery time will be...*sigh* Can you tell that I've been asked these questions a lot already?

Ok, I'm tired now... I'm going to bed...Please don't me before 9 am.

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Surgery today

I'm about to head to the hospital for my surgery. They're going to use screws and plates to put my elbow back together again. I wonder if there will be theme music when I run or throw something...like the bionic woman

Saturday, September 02, 2006

Canadian pennies

Did you think that Canadians hate American pennies as much as we hate Canadian pennies?