Sunday, August 20, 2006

Wizard of Oz

I was watching the Wizard of Oz today and got a glimpse into what men are really like. Ok, I don't want to seem like I'm analyzing the movie to death, but....

The scarecrow
The scarecrow has no brain, yet almost immediately, he's telling Dorothy what to do and how to act. It's funny how the moment after the wizard gave him the diploma, the first thing out of his mouth was wrong... "the square root of the sum of any two sides of an isosoles triangle is equal to the square root of the remaining side"...that's actually not true...it is true with an equilateral triangle. I have read that the writers did that on purpose, sort of an inside intellectual joke.

The tin man
The tin man has no heart although he has to be one of the most weepy man you'll ever meet. Then it becomes painfully obvious that he may not have a heart or at least no sense of other people's feelings. When Dorothy and Scarecrow ask if there are animals in the forest, the Tin Man, in a "pass-the-salt", monotone voice, says, that there are mostly lions and tigers and bears. His tone is so like, "yeah, they might eat you...deal with it!" Later in the movie, he just randomly starts crying because Dorothy went to sleep... Good Grief!!! It almost makes you hate men who cry.

The Lion
Oh my goodness... ok, where to do I start? He starts off shooting his mouth off and ends up going for the only creature who has the courage to stand up to him...Toto. Ok so as soon as Dorothy clocks the lion, which if you look at the scene carefully enough, you'll see Judy Garland trying not to laugh, the real lion's personality comes out. He's not so much a coward as he is a scaredy-cat. He has gotten accustomed to displaying false bravery, as have all men. But when faced with a real challenge, what does he do? He passes out. Eventually he steps up to the plate.

There is so much more, but you have to keep in mind that this movie was released 67 years ago in 1939. I still love the movie.

Thursday, August 17, 2006

My science final...and stuff

Ok, I totally blew my science final... but hey, I did it and it's over. I don't want to ever take any science classes again. That final destroyed my brain. The lady in the test center told me that she was worried about me because every time she looked at me, my head was in my hands. That was me trying not to cry. *sigh*

Well, while I was studying today, I watched a fire drill. The folks in the library, nursing and admin buildings had a fire drill. I couldn't hear the alarm, so I wasn't 100% sure what was going on. Most people, I heard, took their own sweet time exiting the building. It was a good thing that there wasn't a real fire.

So, I have 19 days before my fall classes start. I ordered my text books today. But I'm going to savor these two and half weeks off. I have lots to do work-wise, but I think things are starting to level out. My goal is to try not to stress. After all, I survived my first year at UMUC. I have high hopes for this year. I have also set myself up with a good schedule for the ministry. I'm really getting better at it and I'm really starting to enjoy it more.

I don't have any words of wisdom for the day because my brain is mush right now. I have to go to bed now.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Left-handedness Famous lefties, and some handedness facts

From: http://www.vindy.com/content/local_regional/318634294166551.php
Here's a bit of this and that concerning lefties.

Some famous lefties: Gerald Ford, Ronald Reagan, Bill Clinton, Benjamin Franklin, H. Ross Perot, Joan of Arc, Alexander the Great, Julius Caesar, Queen Victoria of England, Helen Keller, Dr. Albert Schweitzer, Edward R. Murrow, Jay Leno, Richard Simmons, F. Lee Bailey, Mark Twain, Phil Collins, Jim Hendrix, Cole Porter, Paul Simon, Dan Aykroyd, Carol Burnett, George Burns, Charlie Chaplin, Whoopie Goldberg, Cary Grant, Goldie Hawn, Angelina Jolie, Steve McQueen, Marilyn Monroe, Sarah Jessica Parker, Oscar de la Hoya, Terry Labonte, Boomer Esiason, Kenny Stabler, Larry Bird, Bill Russell, Whitey Ford, Casey Stengel and Tommy Lasorda.

Fascinating facts:

  • Most left-handers draw figures facing to the right.There is a high tendency in twins for one to be left-handed.
  • Left-handers adjust more readily to seeing underwater.
  • Left-handers excel particularly in tennis, baseball, swimming and fencing.
  • Left-handers usually reach puberty four to five months after right-handers.
  • Four of the five original designers of the Macintosh computer were left-handed.
  • One in four Apollo astronauts were left-handed.

Sites: There are many Web sites on being left-handed. Among them are www.lefthander.com and www.lefthandersday.com, the sources for this information.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Images in my brain

I'm starting to wonder about my dreams. They are odd, containing people with whom I hardly ever think about or interact. They are all people in my waking life, but not prominent figures in that life. What does this mean?

I have no idea.

I've often wondered why we are so obsessed with our dreams and their meaning in our lives. For instance, if I dream that I'm rolling in a pile of $1 bills, does that mean that money is coming my way or does it mean that I am a greedy person who is only concerned with making money my sole source of happiness?

Why is it so hard? Maybe it's because we don't know from where our dreams come. They are quite random and emerge from the inner crevices of the psyche. Some people claim that our dreams are just manifestations of our inner most desires and fears and that somehow our brains find symbolic ways to translate those desires and fears into images that seem familiar to us.

So... if that's true, how come I can fly in my dreams? or how come I can fall off a cliff, but not go splat on the ground? How come I can do things that border on being wrong, but not actually cross that line? Why do I dream that people, who love me in the waking world, begin to violently hate me? Or better yet, why can I fix things, problems, in my dreams...problems that I am powerless to even approach in my waking life?

Dreams are weird...things...who can really understand?

Besides, Joseph and Daniel, that is....

Saturday, August 12, 2006

Chicken soup for the soul

It's amazing what 11 hours of sleep will do for you. I went to bed at 8 pm last night and didn't wake up until 7:30 am. I dreamt about all kinds of things, some not so pleasant, but not scary either. I don't want to say what the dream was because you might think me sick and demented.

I'm watching Superman now... no not the new one. The first one with Chris Reeve. I haven't seen in so many years, I feel like I'm watching it for the first time. I should've made some popcorn or had some ice cream, but that would've been one more dish to wash. I'm sick of washing dishes.

And with that, I'll end this blog... because I have nothing else to say :-/

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Conflict

con·flict (knflkt)
n.

  • A state of open, often prolonged fighting; a battle or war.
  • A state of disharmony between incompatible or antithetical persons, ideas, or interests; a clash
  • Psychology. A psychic struggle, often unconscious, resulting from the opposition or simultaneous functioning of mutually exclusive impulses, desires, or tendencies.
    Opposition between characters or forces in a work of drama or fiction, especially opposition that motivates or shapes the action of the plot.

intr.v. con·flict·ed, con·flict·ing, con·flicts (kn-flkt)

  • To be in or come into opposition; differ.
  • Archaic. To engage in warfare.

The apostle Paul spoke of man's internal conflict, the spirit vs. the flesh at
(ROMANS 7:21-23) 21 I find, then, this law in my case: that when I wish to do what is right, what is bad is present with me. 22 I really delight in the law of God according to the man I am within, 23 but I behold in my members another law warring against the law of my mind and leading me captive to sin’s law that is in my members.

We all go through this at some point in our lives. I'm going through it right now.

If you're boy, don't read this

A friend told me today that once you reach your thirties, your body starts going through changes. She told me that she started getting weepy over the strangest things and that she started getting migraines.

Well, I've been weepy, but haven't had the migraines.

Monday I was hostile and weepy.
Tuesday I was emotionally drained and weepy.
Today I was just weepy.

Sometimes, it's no fun being a girl :(

Long week...already

When is it ok to compromise standards that you set for yourself? I'm not talking about moral standards because I don't think it's ever right to compromise your christian principles.

I guess what I'm talking about is having expectations about how I handle myself in particular situations. I mean,for the most part, I'm an easy going person. But lately, I've been feeling my patience running really REALLY short. I expect things to be a certain way, for people to abide by a set of rules that I have inside my head.

Why don't other people know these rules? Why can't other people live and act by my standards? Why can't I write a sentence about someone else? Why is everything about me?

I need to get this resolved either by changing my attitude or everyone else's. I think the former is easier. But it will take some work.

Maybe I need some starbucks...

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Gina's Song

artist: Reba McEntire lyrics
title: I'll Be
album: So Good Together

(Dianne Warren)

When darkness falls upon your heart and soul.
I'll be the light that shines for you.
When you forget how beautiful you are
I'll be there to remind you.
When you can't find your way,
I'll find my way to you.
When troubles come around,
I will come to you.

I'll be your shoulder when you need someone to lean on.
Be your shelter.
When you need someone to see you through.
I'll be there to carry you.
I'll be there.
I'll be the rock that will be strong for you.
The one that will hold on to you.
When you feel that rain falling down.
When there's nobody else around.
I'll be.

And when you're there with no one there to hold.
I'll be the arms that reach for you.
And when you feel your faith is running low.
I'll be there to believe in you.
When all you find are lies.
I'll be the truth you need.
When you need someone to run to.
You can run to me

I'll be your shoulder when you need someone to lean on.
Be your shelter.
When you need someone to see you through.
I'll be there to carry you.
I'll be there.
I'll be the rock that will be strong for you.
The one that will hold on to you.
When you feel that rain falling down.
When there's nobody else around.
I'll be.

I'll be the sun.
When your heart's filled with rain.
I'll be the one.
To chase the rain away.

I'll be your shoulder when you need someone to lean on.
Be your shelter.
When you need someone to see you through.
I'll be there to carry you.
I'll be there.
I'll be the rock that will be strong for you.
The one that will hold on to you.
When you feel that rain falling down.
When there's nobody else around.
I'll be.
I'll be.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Long Day

There are days when I like I can't do anything right. Nothing goes the way it should and at the end of the day, I wish that I hadn't gotten out of bed.

Yesterday was one of those days.

Today is going to be a better day... it has to be!

There's no crying in baseball!

Friday, August 04, 2006

sorry for being lax

I haven't been posting as much this month... or should I say, July. It's been hectic with traveling and then getting back to work. I've been so overwhelmed with all my work and with my summer class. Who ever allowed my to take a science class online didn't do me any favors. I needed a face-to-face section so that I could understand things better. But what's done is done.

I had a conversation that left me emotional distraught and questioning my choice of careers....

I'm just kidding...

It did wear me out though. Now I just want to go to sleep and not wake up for 24 hours. That won't happen, but a girl can dream ;)

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Stand

You feel like a candle in a hurricane
Just like a picture with a broken frame
Alone and helpless
Like you've lost your fight
But you'll be alright

[Chorus:]
Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause its all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off
Then you Stand, Then you stand
Life's like a novel
With the end ripped out
The edge of a canyon
With only one way down
Take what you're given before its gone
Start holding on, keep holding on

[Repeat Chorus]

Everytime you get up
And get back in the race
One more small piece of you
Starts to fall into place
Ooohhh

[Repeat Chorus]

-Rascal Flatts
Stand

Monday, July 24, 2006

My new guilty pleasure


VH1 and Entertainment Weekly are putting the country's pop culture savvy to the test with the new original series "The World Series of Pop Culture," presented by Alltel Wireless.

http://www.vh1.com/shows/dyn/wsopc/series.jhtml

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Team Aniston vs. Team Jolie

Ok, is anyone else disturbed by the fact that Angelina Jolie stole the role of Marianne Pearl from Jennifer Aniston? The fact that she got a role over Aniston is not what disturbs me so much as the idea that either one of them was up for the role of a Marianne Pearl.

Take a look at Marianne Pearl

Angelina Jolie to star in Brad Pitt-produced film

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Red Day - In more ways than one

Saturday's journey was not for the faint of heart. My plans were very ambitious:

1. Aquarium
2. Museum of Fine Arts (second visits)
3. Institute of Contemporary Arts
4. Skywalk Observatory.

I made it to the aquarium and 9:45 am after coaching a follow tourist about planning day trips. After making sure she got some water for the day. I headed for the aquarium. The penguins were cute. There were a million kinds of fish in a thousand tanks. There was one large take with a ton of big fish including barracudas and the giant sea turtle from Finding Nemo. I immediately wanted to know how old he was because Sandy Plankton said that sea turtles live to be 100 years old. But hey what does Sandy Plankton know? As it turns out the sea turtle was 65 years old.

I left the aquarium with a slight headache and feeling a little icky, but I chalked it up to not having a good breakfast. I went back to the subway station and headed out to the Museum of Fine Arts for the second time. I really wanted to go back to the gift shop. When I went on Thursday, I didn't have enough money to get anything. This time I went in armed with cash. I found a poster for my mom and a postcard or two.

I left the MFA intent on seeing the Institute of Contemporary Art. It was on the way to the Skywalk Observatory. I arrived at the ICA subway stop and wandered around Boylston street, but I couldn't find the ICA. I walked and walked and finally found it - and it was closed. I did find the Virgin Megastore and yes, I went in. It was a pretty nice store, very well stocked with a variety of selections. Just in case you're wondering, yes, I did buy some music.

It was odd being in the Virgin Megastore. It made me think back to my days at Sam Goody. You know, there was a period of time when I really loved working there. The days when it just about the music were the best days. I still really love music and I think that's what I miss the most about Sam Goody. My goodness...My thoughts have strayed.

I left to go to my next destination, the SkyWalk Observatory... Oddly enough, I didn't realize that I was one block away. I got on the subway and transferred trains just to end up one block away. By now, I felt really strange. I figured that I should take some pain medication for my now throbbing head. I went into the Prudential Center intent on finding food. I ended up going to Qdoba, the Mexican restaurant I discovered in Philadelphia and got a chicken taco salad.

Now, here's where the trip gets a little bit graphic.

I made my way to the food court and as I was sitting there, I kept feeling like I was going to pass out. I was having mini blackouts and I felt like the room was moving. I decided that it was best to go to the restroom in case I got sick and of course there were a million people in line. There were women with children, friends talking and all I could think was, "please don't let me throw up in line". Finally, my turn... Nothing... Man, I really thought it was coming. I guess it was a false alarm.

See that's what I thought....

I started walking out of the mall and suddenly...SPLAT!!!

I fell to my knees and tried to get myself together. No one stopped to help me, but I managed on my own to make back to the restroom, which was, of course, empty. I cleaned up a bit and headed straight to the subway to get back to the hotel. I finally made it back to the hotel and crashed in the bed. I felt horrible the rest of the night so I just stayed in bed. My mom told me to let the hotel folks know if I get sick again and to have them take me to hospital if I threw up again. Thankfully, I didn't.

Friday, July 14, 2006

Blue Day - Friday

I have been reading about the Freedom Trail ever since I decided to go the Boston. Its history dates back to colonial times just before and after the American Revolutionary war. The major characters in this tale are, Samuel Adams (yes, the beer guy), John Adams (the president), John Hancock (the signature guy), and Paul Revere.

The trail starts out in Boston Common near the new state house and goes for 2.5 miles. It has several stops along the way including the Park Street Church (a.k.a Fire and Brimstone corner), Granary Graveyard, Spring Street, Old State House, The Boston Massacre, Paul Revere's House, and Old North Church. It was an interesting trek, but at 90+ degree heat, it became a bit hard to keep interested. We lost some people along the way.

There were two interesting things of note for the Freedom Trail.

1. If you go, you have to know that you will most likely start in Boston Common, which is the main (central) park in Boston. Now there may be people randomly lying in the grass asleep...Some are hobos and some aren't don't be alarmed, just keep walking.

2. If you wear a backpack and look young, you may get a student discount. They may or may not ask for your ID. They took me for my word, which was good because I think my ID card was expired.

After the Freedom Trail, I went to Harvard University, "There is no substitute!" (From the movie, Soul Man). Harvard's Museum of Natural History has some exhibits that are similar to the Museum of Science. But they did have some cultural exhibits, like art and artifacts from central and south america. It was great to see artifacts from the Aztec and Mayan people and to see Teotihucan represented as well.

In another room, there were photos by Anne Winston Spirn. Her photos were mostly rural, but very powerful, capturing nature's beauty. After seeing Winston Spirn's and Laura McPhee's photos, I have a new respect for the art of photography. Photographers capture life as it is, but they bring things to our attention that we may both have noticed on our own.

As fascinating as the exhibits were, I was getting restless. I was really excited to be on the campus of Harvard. I felt like I was in the episode of the Gilmore Girls when Lorelei and Rory went to visit Harvard. I walked around Harvard Yard, desperately wanting to see a dorm, a classroom, and then I saw the library. I didn't go for fear of incurring yet another library fine. I have incurred fines in libraries all over the place.

After exploring campus a bit, I walked around cambridge for a while. I found a Harvard souvenir shop and bought a Harvard shirt and cap. I grabbed lunch, listened to three guys play some music in the town square and then headed for the subway...Next stop, JFK Presidential Library at UMass.

The JFK Library was interesting because it detailed John F. Kennedy's days as a senator, his presidential campaign, inauguration, highlights of his term and his family life. There were videos of actual events (presidential debates and the "ask not what you can do for your country" speech, replicas of actual furniture pieces from the oval office, and real hand written notes for speeches. In one hallway there was a video of Bill Clinton talking about meeting JFK when he was a teenager. It was funny to see the video of that meeting.

The JFK Library closed at 5 pm and I decided to head to Fanuiel Hall to get some dinner. I read about a restaurant called Durgin-Park, so I decided to look for it. It is right near Cheers, which was jammed packed. I ordered the seafood platter and tried to recover from the day. It was really hot and I was thoroughly exhausted. Heat stroke did cross my mind, but since I was drinking lots of water, I thought I was fine.

I made it back to the hotel at 8 pm in need of a shower and lots of sleep. I got both :)

Green Lines and pasty white people

After a couple of hours of planning, checking and replanning, I decided on an itinerary for each day in Boston (check out yesterday's blog). Gina told me to start out early to take in the most activities. So I started out at 8 am and took the hotel shuttle to the subway. On the way, We drove by the NECCO factory...you know NECCO wafers.

Apparently, NECCO stands for New England Confectionary Company. The headquarters is in Revere Mass, just outside Boston. I never really liked NECCO wafers, but it was cool to see the factory.

The driver dropped us off at the airport metro stop and off I went. After a couple of tries, I finally got a day pass. Today is green day, so all my destinations are on the green line. Ok, off to the Museum of Science. The Museum of Science is like the Maryland Science Center, I think bigger. one of the first displays I saw was related to something we just learned in science class - the principle of conduction. There were three squares, one copper, one wood, and one granite. The copper square appeared to be the coldest, but they were all the same temperature. Since copper is a good conductor, it pulled the most heat from my hand, making it appear to be the coolest square.

I walked by another display that I never thought about being scientific. Remember view masters? It never occured to me that science was involved in those 3D images. Of course, I haven't seen one since I was a kid, so why would I have thought about the science behind view-masters?

The mathematics room had some interesting exhibits including the pinball vortex looking thing that simulated the orbit of the planets in the solar system. As I watched the silver ball go round and round, I felt like I should place a bet... black 17. It took about 6 minutes to finally go down the hole. Next stop, animals live. It was a mini show with a live animal. This was clearly a show for young kids, but hey, it sounded interesting. Right behind my seat was a glassed in display of bats. Needless to say, I didn't really need to read about nor see any bats. I've already seen too many as it is. The featured animal was ground hound aka the wood chuck and before you ask, yes the host did bring up the infamous question, "how much wood could a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood?" To set the record straight, woodchucks can't chuck wood at all. I was kind of disappointed to hear that, but hey, what are you going to do?

There was another exhibit about the human body and where babies come from. They showed the female reproductive organs and male reproductive organs. There was even a video with a real child birth. There was a little boy about 9 or 10 who declared that only the girls needed to see that video. I opted out. One of my last stops was the Theatre of Electricity. It was really cool. They simulate electricity and create an indoor lightning storm.

Ok, off to destination #2... Museum of Fine Arts. E line to Arlington, transfer Heath line. The Museum of Fine Arts, located across from Wentworth Institute of Technology, is a grand old building that from one side looks like an old municipal building. They're building a new wing, but I have no idea what it looks like, I wondered over there, but go so turned around and lost. Anyhow, inside, they have two rotunda areas that jet off in several directions with halls with art from various lands and times. Of course there was european art from the 16th through 19th century. There was one thing that I noticed about museums - the lighting is different in each room. The dark paintings of plump naked white people are kept in darker rooms. My first thought was that it would lessen the chance of you noticing just how naked these white folks are. Question, what was the deal with naked white folks. They were always fainting or looking very tired. They were in a pre-fig leaf frame of mind because it didn't seem to be a big deal that
most of the people in the paintings were naked. Although there was one painting where a man was trying to cover up a lady who was nude, as if to say, "DUDE!, you can't paint my women in the nude!"

Now the folks who did have clothes on seemed annoyed that they had to sit for the painting, no one looked happy or interested at all. They kind of looked like me after I had seen about two rooms of naked people...bored. I know it's art, but it's just not the kind that I'm terribly interested in. There was one painting that I did find interesting out of all the European art exhibits. There was one of Salome, from the bible. She was being handed John the Baptist's head on a silver platter. Now, this painting was based on the account from the gospel account according to Luke, where King Herod is hosting a birthday party for Salome. He promises her anything she wants and because John the Baptist made it know that Salome's mother and King Herod had married on unscriptural grounds, Salome's mother told Salome to ask Herod for John's head on a platter. It's interesting because I did something in the museum that I never did before. I listened to music on my mp3 player. As I was walking to this painting, I was listening to evanescence's song Missing.

"Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now."

When she sang those words, I felt so bad for John the Baptist.

After evanescence and the european paintings, I headed for 19th and 20th century american art. Dave Matthews' Before these Crowded Streets was my soundtrack and I really felt like it added the experience. During my trek through the 20th century I saw a Joanne Hawkins look-a-like. She's a lady from work. I didn't think much of that except for the fact that she really looked like Joanne's twin. I wanted to take a picture, but there was no discreet way to do it. Of course, when I went through the main hallway and saw another person who looked like an HCC employee, I started to worry that my subconscious was missing work. Again I tried to shake it off and then low and behold, I saw a VK look alike. Well, that was more than enough for me. I went to the gift shop, picked up a couple of things and left the museum. I don't know why all those HCC employees had to follow me to the museum. They weren't going to get me to help them with their web pages, I didn't care what they said. No help desk calls on vacation.

Before I left, I did go through a great photography exhibit for Laura McPhee. She is really good.

My final destination was Boston College. I read that there was a Nurembego Park Exhibit at the John L. Burns Library. When I got to Boston College, I discovered that no one even knew where the Burns Library was located. I got there and I have to say that I was mildly disappointed that the exhibit was a bunch of old post cards and flyers in a glass case. I was in and out in 5 minutes.

I made my way back to the hotel in about an hour and finally got off my feet. They weren't quite on fire but they were close to it. I sat on the bed for while and answered some email. I don't understand why I've gotten so much email in the past two days.

Tomorrow is the Red Line day.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Beantown

Although I slept well last night, I did wake up a couple of times throughout the night. I managed to get up on time and get my house organized for the trip. I have people coming to my house on Monday and really didn't want to have to clean Sunday night after I get home.

The plane ride was pretty uneventful. I did get my seat changed to the emergency exit row. It's pretty cool because there's more leg room in that row. Of course, if there's an emergency, you are obligated to help the cabin crew and your fellow passengers to safety.

The flight, which took all over one hour, went smoothly and I was pleasantly surprise to find out that AirTran has XM satellite radio on its flights. You can connect to it through your arm rest. I think I like XM satellite radio, but I don't think I can afford it right now.

When we landed at Logan Airport, I saw another plane on the run way that said NWA. I instantly thought of the rap group, but then I realized that it probably stood for Northwest airlines. But how funny would it have been if the airplane had been "pimped out" with spinning rims and huge subwoofers in the back?

I retrieved my suitcase... yes it actually made it there... and headed for the shuttle pick up area. Two hours later, the van finally showed up. I don't remember seeing anything on the hotel website saying that you needed to call to ask them to pick you up. But oh well.

The Four Points at Sheraton is a small hotel, but my room has a great big bed. The bed is a king size bed, the largest bed ever. It's a big girl bed for sure.

It was raining when I got here, so my plans to go explore were sort of dashed. But in the long run, it was ok because I arrived with a really bad headache and a stuffy nose. I wanted to get some rest and sleep off this thing that is trying to become a cold. It also gave me the chance to plot out my itinerary based on the detailed subway map I got from the lobby. So here's the plan:

THURSDAY - Green Line
Museum of Science
Museum of Fine Arts
Boston College

FRIDAY - Red Line
Harvard Museum of Natural History
Freedom Trail
John F Kennedy Library

SATURDAY - Blue Line

Boston African American Historical Park
New England Aquarium

I'll post my thoughts and some pix each day so you can read about my adventures.

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Exploring Philly

Last night I went to Cereality and it was very interesting. A cereal bar is really cool if you love cereal. Of course after I ate the cereal, I was still hungry. So I went Pat's King of Steaks. I liked the cheesesteaks that I got last year, but the "cheese wiz steak wit" wasn't that good. It had lots of fat on it, which is not good for cheese steaks.

I went to Geno Steaks for cheese fries and saw the most offensive yet patriotic sign. It said, "I'm an american, so I order in english". I have seen patriotic signs before, but something inside me was so incensed by that one. I would think that a store, in what seems to be a poor neighborhood, would want customers from all backgrounds. It seems like they are deliberately alienating the latinos in the neighborhood. But I guess it's ok because over at Pat's, their folks are multilingual and they welcome everyone.

Thursday, July 06, 2006

East Coast Gal

After a day of traveling, I'm completely tired. But it's a good tired. I drove here to Philadelphia and I managed to make it here without any problems. I did forget my camera, but I'll deal. I was thinking about getting a disposable camera. But the thought of getting the pictures developed and transferred to CD was more than I could stand. I know, it's lazy, but hey, I'm tired.

I arrived at the hotel and made my way to the check in desk. I picked the Sheraton (http://www.starwoodhotels.com/sheraton/search/hotel_detail.html?propertyID=992) because I've always loved their service, pricing, and cleanliness. But today, I had a few problems checking in. We got things settled and I even found out that my internet connection was free (wooohooo!).

I went to my room and found things exactly as I had left them a year ago. Now of course, I'm not in the same room, but somehow it felt like it was. I unpacked my bags and decided to go on the hunt for food. I resisted the urge to play it lazy and pick up something from the wawa right across the street. I kept walking by and looked at the cafes in the area. It was so nice to walk around University City, a name that is appropriate for the surroundings. Right near by is Drexel University, Penn State, many other colleges, universities and specialty schools for art, culinary arts, writing, and design. There's a school for everything here and there are a million students. Interpersed are buildings that look as old the country itself. Cobbled stones streets in some areas transport me to colonial days where things were simpler.

I continued walking sort of following the crowds of students. I was channeling my inner Rachael Ray, looking for a great place to eat, off the beaten path with great eats. I walked by one place that I made note of called Cereality. It is the greatest store ever. It's a cereal bar. You can go in any get any kind and combination of cereal you want and they put it in a Chinese food take out container for you. I think I'll go back and actually get some cereal one morning before I leave.

I wasn't up for cereal for dinner, so I kept walking. I ended up at a Mexican food place called Qdoba Mexican Grill. They have a few items on the menu, not many. I ordered the chicken fajita burrito, chips and guacamole (smile Gina!). The burrito was not your ordinary burrito. Everything that you would have with fajitas was jammed into this burrito. I didn't actually know how I would eat it. I walked home, talked to my mom on the phone as I walked and marveled at all the scenery that I had never seen in Philly before. All the college students walking around, studying at benches and socializing... It made me realize why I'm not having that great a time in college. As an online student, I don't have the social interaction that goes with a traditional college education. I don't mind for the most part, but there are times when having other students around would be helpful and encouraging to me. Don't get me wrong, I get plenty of support and ultimately I like being unencumbered by the social responsibility that goes along with the college life.

But I digress...

Tomorrow is the first day of the Deliverance at Hand District Convention. I've heard really good things about the convention from other people. I know that I'll leave spiritually encouraged and rejuvenated.

More tomorrow...

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

MySpace

I don't want to say that I have MySpace envy because I don't. But everyone seems to joining MySpace. I keep getting invitations to join MySpace, but there is something about it that just doesn't sit well with me. I can't put my finger on it and I don't have the words to verbalize it. But I have no desire to join. Odd for me, I know. I'm the techie girl always looking for something new.

Go figure :-/

Monday, July 03, 2006

Shopping

There are days when I am fully convinced that I am lacking some of the most important "girl" genes. Whenever it's time to go shopping for clothes, shoes, purses, jewelry, makeup... basically anything that is unique to women.

I took my poor unsuspecting friend shopping with me because I am hopeless on my own. We started out a little after 1 pm and didn't get home until close to 8 pm. She said that she had a good time... it was torture for me, mostly because I didn't have a clue. I take that back... I knew exactly what I didn't want. But she and my sister Tiffany managed to find three skirts and a top for me. I did pull out one top for myself. I surprised myself. Now, I have to find two more tops and then my outfits will be complete. So tomorrow I have to go to Old Navy to get some camis.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Finally, the sun

After four days of rain, the sun finally came out. There are many areas all over the state that are flooded, although, not nearly as bad as they could've been. I'm glad for the sun because the clouds just seem to bring my mood down.

Today is the last training class I have to teach for a while. I have a good feeling about the group that I have today. I think things will go well. I came to work an hour early to get prepared.

I got some interesting information yesterday that put some concerns I had to rest. Those concerns have been weighing on me for a while. But now I feel like things are going to be alright. No need to worry, no need to fret.

Two more days until vacation. Woooohooooo!!!

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Just breathe...

Today was so hectic...I honestly thought that I was going to have a panic attack. I did training today and the first thing that happened was that the room couldn't access the website we needed...

Quick find another room...(15 minutes before class)

Run, run, run... get the roster... oh good, only 8 people registered... bring a couple of extra booklets just in case.

Walking to the new classroom...splash... no more juice...it's all over the floor... Man, that was vitamin water too.

Run, run, run again... get to the classroom. Why are all these extra people here... OMG!!! There are 19 people in a classroom that holds 12 people and only 8 were supposed to be there.

"But I registered... what do you mean my name isn't on the list?"
ME: "It's ok, come on in."
To the day care teachers...ME: "Is it ok to cry now?"

Ok, just breathe... you'll get through this. What? What do you mean, some of the computers don't work? *sniff sniff*

Breathe, breathe...

Let someone else make the opening remarks... go get some water and breathe.

Ok, let's get started...

I taught the class from there and things went ok for the most part. I had one of our consultants there to help me with difficult questions. We made it through without too many problems. Around 5:10 pm, I finally made it to my cube, my new cube. It's still weird to be there. It doesn't feel like mine yet.

Sunday, June 18, 2006

Day two

My mom called this morning around 9 am to say that the pain from last night was even worse. She needed to go back to the ER. We went back and they took her after about 10 minutes. By this time, the pain was so bad that she was in tears.

They put her in a room and the ER doctor came into take a look. Yesterday's doctor didn't check her doctor, even though she kept telling him that her back was killing her. Today's doctor looked at her back right away and could feel the spasms. He said that he suspected that she had problem with a disc and that they needed to do an MRI to be sure. After a couple of hours, he came back and told her that she had a herniated disc. They gave her some pain meds and a referral to see another doctor to determine the next step, which may be surgery.

In the meantime, we had a really great talk about a lot of things. They gave her some pain meds so she told me a couple of things twice. We just laughed when that happened. I took the opportunity to liberate all my mom's quarters from her wallet. After all, who needs quarters in the hospital.

It was really nice to talk about things we've never talked about before. In some ways it was like we were just friends today having a really great talk.

I took her home around 4 pm and got her prescription. Hopefully she can get some rest this evening.

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Long Day

This morning my mom called to ask me to take her the emergency room. Her back and arm were hurting really bad. They doctors did blood tests, xrays and CAT scans and told her that everything was normal. They sent her home and told her to take some tylenol. She went home, but she doesn't feel much better. Hopefully, she can get some sleep and feel a little better in the morning.

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Food, glorious, food


I had some really good shrimp for dinner today. It was Margaritaville Jammin' Jerk Shrimp and it was lovely. It was the perfect followup to a great burger for lunch. We went to Red Robin and I really enjoyed it. We drank freckled lemonade which was really strawberries in lemonade. I also had a guacamole bacon burger. ALthough I don't eat beef that often, I really liked the burger.

I have new Danish friends...
It is nice to meet people from other lands because you get to hear what other people think about the US and how different Americans are from other people. But then the conversation continues and you realize that we're really not much different after all.

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Deadlines and such

So, I haven't written in a few days. I finding that I have less and less to say that would be of any interest to you. You're my friend and I want you to be informed, entertained and enlightened when you read this blog. If I just drone on about the mundane happenings in my life, well, that's no fun. I wouldn't read a blog like that...

So did I get a lot of work done today? I would say yes and no. I didn't get a lot done on my TO DO list. But I did lay the foundation for a couple of projects. I'm not sure if I'll meet my deadlines for tomorrow, but I'll do the best I can. I'm determined not to work on this at home, but I have a feeling that I might have to pack up the stuff and take it home. See this is what happens when you bite off more than you can chew. I was trying to be helpful and be a team player, but I ended up digging myself into a hole. That'll learn me:(

The one thing or actually one of the things that I'm looking forward to is getting my new cubicle. Now, I know getting to work in a cube doesn't sound like the greatest thing in the world. But my group is moving into brand new cubes that have doors. Granted they don't have four walls (I can hear your laughter already), but we'll make do. I'm planning a cube warming party with mini cupcakes and mini sodas and if I can swing it, a couple of "work time" cocktails. I don't know how I'll do that, but the cocktails are for one particular person who seems fairly conservative, but who, I'm sure, has seen a lampshade in her day on more than one occasion.

So I guess it's time to go home. I have homework to do and a party to plan.

Sunday, June 11, 2006

Verses du jour

Proverbs 3:5,6
"Trust in Jehovah with all your hear and do not lean upon your own understanding. In all you ways take notice of him, and he himself will make your paths straight."

Matthew 28:19-20
"19 Go therefore and make disciples of people of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the holy spirit, 20 teaching them to observe all the things I have commanded YOU. And, look! I am with YOU all the days until the conclusion of the system of things..."

Thursday, June 08, 2006

Do you know Gina and Sandy?

Do you know my friends Gina and Sandy? Take this quiz to find out just how well you know this dynamic duo

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/linkIM03.php?quizname=060608004354-377013&




Sunday, June 04, 2006

Why?

Last night, someone tried to break into my mother van. They busted the back window open and it looks like they tried to pull the back windshield out. Since no other cars were damaged, we are assuming that someone targeted her car. But why?

Saturday, June 03, 2006

The Girls' Book of Friendship

I picked up a neat little book at the library today. The Girls' Book of Friendship has great quotes and stories, like:

A Common Language
The language of girlfriends! I have no idea what a doohickey is, but when Doris calls something a doohickey, I know exactly what she's talking about. Not only do we borrow one another's clothes, makeup, and other doohickeys, but we also have reached the point where we understand each other's language. Sometimes when we can't even express our pain, the language of a girlfriends goes beyond what can be uttered. After all, the lexicon for girlfriends isn't entirely filled with words. Through its bulk of pages you will also see snorts, hugs, and tears. In this language there are even moments of no language, just silence. This silence is filled with understanding and strength.
-Chonda Pierce, Comedian, Speaker, Writer, Recording Artist

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

OOPS

The freakiest thing happened today. As I was leaving work today, I started to go out an emergency exit. Now this is a door that is always unlocked and isn't truly an emergency exit. As I put my hand on the door, the fire alarm went off. Now, it was a coincidence, but it made me jump for a second.

I had a Steve Urkel "did I do that?" moment.

In other news...

My vacation plans are progressing. I looked into Red Sox tickets, not realizing that Red Sox tickets are more rare than error free speech from George Bush. I did find some tickets on eBay, but they're all terribly expensive. I don't "need" to the see the Red Sox, but it would be nice. I need to figure out my itinerary.

Here are some possibilities:

•Museum of Science
•New England Aquarium
•Skywalk Observatory
•Museum of Fine Arts, Boston
•Harvard Museum of Natural History
•John F. Kennedy Presidential Library & Museum

I have to update my website with my itinerary soon. It'll be done soon. I need to come up with a new design. I promise I'll do it before I leave...really!

Monday, May 29, 2006

A new beginning

This is the week of reckoning... all hopes and dreams begin and end here.



Congratulations Tiffany!
Class of 2006

Sunday, May 28, 2006

Faith

(Hebrews 11:1)Faith is the assured expectation of things hoped for, the evident demonstration of realities though not beheld.

(Hebrews 11:6) 6 Moreover, without faith it is impossible to please [him] well, for he that approaches God must believe that he is and that he becomes the rewarder of those earnestly seeking him(m*).

*** Marginals ***
(Zephaniah 2:3) seek Jehovah, all YOU meek ones of the earth, who have practiced His own judicial decision. Seek righteousness, seek meekness. Probably YOU may be concealed in the day of Jehovah’s anger.

(Matthew 6:33) "Keep on, then, seeking first the kingdom and his righteousness, and all these [other] things will be added to YOU.

Saturday, May 27, 2006

My Summer Vacation

Here's the vacation plan:

July 6 - 9 - Philadelphia
Sheraton University City
Attending the 2006 District Convention of Jehovah's Witnesses

July 12 - 16 Boston
Comfort Inn & Suites Logan International Airport
Bumming around Boston :)

I'm driving to Philly, but flying to Boston. As soon as I make flight plans, I'll post them.

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Catching Up

I haven't written, really written, in a while. I think that the break in classes has left me devoid of grandiose ideas. I did read an interesting article today claiming that the sane half of TomKat maybe experiencing post partum depression. I wonder if old Tommy has stocked up on Flinstone chewables for his baby girl...and her mom.

On a lighter note, I got an A in my web design class. I was really happy when I saw that especially given the trying circumstances I endured with that class. I still haven't gotten my grade for my Intro to Computers class. Intro to Physical Science starts next week. My sister Tiffany, who is graduating from high school next week, took one look at my text book and basically told me that I'll be taking high school level science. I hope I'm up to it.

I'll post my feelings about LOST tommorow.

Friday, May 19, 2006

End of the week

This week, although devoid of homework or class obligations, was still pretty busy. I had plenty to do and discovered some work that still needs to be done. Hopefully, things will stay slow for a while so that these issues can be resolved.

Tomorrow, I'll be at the alumni and friends reunion. It's 3-6 (open house) and 6-8 (evening reception). It's been lots of planning but I think everything will be fine.


Tuesday, May 16, 2006

What's going on?

In case you haven't heard...

There was a bat in my apartment on Sunday night...

Bats in the house and dogs in the car... what's next? A plague on my household? Boils, frogs, a day in darkness?

Sunday, May 14, 2006

1 John 4:18

"There is no fear in love, but perfect love throws fear outside, because fear exercises a restraint. Indeed, he that is under fear has not been made perfect in love."

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Blog things

Your Linguistic Profile::
50% General American English
25% Dixie
20% Yankee
0% Midwestern
0% Upper Midwestern



You Should Be a Joke Writer

You're totally hilarious, and you can find the humor in any situation.
Whether you're spouting off zingers, comebacks, or jokes about life...
You usually can keep a crowd laughing, and you have plenty of material.
You have the makings of a great comedian - or comedic writer.



You Passed 8th Grade Science

Congratulations, you got 7/8 correct!

Friday, May 12, 2006

Our Town

This is a story about Grover's Corner...



I saw this play tonight at Howard Community College. I've seen a couple of plays at HCC, but I have enjoyed each one. This simple story set between 1901 and 1913 takes you back to a simpler time...A time when love was more pure, life was slower, everyone knew everyone's name. Your guide, the narrator, is there to fill you in on all the important details of the town.

I thorougly enjoyed the play. I know they'll be many more.

Thursday, May 11, 2006

Web site project

At long last, my project is done (http://polaris.umuc.edu/~jjones). It was a lot of hard work and frustration, but I think it's one of the best sites I've done. There are things that I don't like about it, but they are things that couldn't be helped in the framework of my class.

I'll post a link to the site from my personal website soon.
Updated on 5/14/2006 - http://www.jmjdesigns.com/dayspa

Monday, May 08, 2006

Nightmares again

Once again, I had the twin towers dream. Every now and again I dream that I'm in one of the twin towers on September 11th. This time, I was in the building and I could see the planes coming toward the building despite being on the first floor. I managed to get out in time before the towers fell.

This has got to be one of the most disturbing dreams I've ever had. The fire dreams are distressing, but the twin towers dreams are far worse. I can't imagine what it would've been like to be in the twin towers when they were hit. It was the worse day in American history.

Friday, May 05, 2006

If you're not a part of the solution, you're a part of the problem

I posted the following on a message board in the hopes of getting some helpful answers:

I need some help with a couple of XML pages I'm developing for my web design class. I think I may have done something wrong because when I try to view my xml pages in IE I don't get anything. But when I try to open them in Firefox, they open.


Here's my site: http://polaris.umuc.edu/~jjones/


Go to Massage and Face and Skin for the links.


My XML pages:
http://polaris.umuc.edu/~jjones/massage.xml

http://polaris.umuc.edu/~jjones/faceskin.xml
I am linking to the wrong file? Should I be linking to the .xsl file? What file extension should I be using. I'm confused and tired.


The only answers I've gotten so have been nothing but my problem rewritten.

  • I'm not sure how to fix it, but this is the error I got from Maxthon The XML page cannot be displayed Cannot view XML input using style sheet. (If you don't know how to fix it, why did you bother to email? )
  • I have noticed that your XML pages are not showing up. (No, really?)
  • Ok, I think I may have figured it out. What do you have your default browser set as? If you change your browser to IE, maybe it will show up correctly in IE. (Did you even read my problem? It doesn't show up in IE)
  • The first link I click on just brings up a page with you background color. The second link gives this error message in IE:

    "The XML page cannot be displayed (Yes, I know, that's the problem!!!)
    Cannot view XML input using style sheet. Please correct the error and then click the Refresh button, or try again later.
Here's my theory (and plea): if you can't help me, KEEP QUIET!!

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

I should've gone to bed

I feel guilty for not keeping up with my blog lately. Life has been so hectic with school and work projects. I'm working on my Web Design class sememster project. It's a web site about a day spa. It's not as easy a topic as I thought it would be. But I'm plowing through.

Thinking of plowing through... I was working on my project Sunday night. I started around 9 pm and at one point looked up at the time and it was 4 am. I was shocked to say the least. I ended up working on it for four more hours and at 8:15 am I went to bed. I called and left a garbled message on my supervisor's voicemail and went to bed. After 2 hours, I woke up and started getting ready for work. Here's a tip for you, if you don't sleep for 22 hours, you don't get to decide what's best for you that particular day. Going to work was such a mistake because when I finally got there, I was so tired, I couldn't even think. I'm glad that no one asked about anything of any importance because they wouldn't have gotten anything intelligent from me.

Just talking about it is making me sleepy... I need a nap.

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Laurel Spanish Congregation

I went to the spanish congregation today and it was very nice. The talk was about Galatians 6:7, "whatever a man is sowing, this he shall also reap". There were really good points about meeting attendance, personal bible study, being careful about our associations, and certain kinds of entertainment. I was surprised because I picked up about 30% of the talk. The rest was over my head.

The Watchtower study was easier to follow because I had my english copy of the magazine along with the spanish copy. I'm still not ready to raise my hand and answer a question, but maybe one day. I met a sister named Christine who said that she decided to move to a spanish congregation, but she hadn't had any classes. She found that just being there and attending the spanish and english meetings helped her. She suggested that I do the same. She also suggested that I go out in the ministry with the spanish congregation as well. Their public talk is on Saturdays, so I could go on Saturdays at 2pm for spanish and then Sundays at 3:30 at my regular congregation for english. I friend of mine, who is now in a sign language congregation, did that for a while until she felt comfortable going to the sign language congregation all the time.

So I'm going to try to keep at it.

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Deja vu

I was thinking today as I was watching LOST, we're never going to see Harold Perrineau anymore. Then, they showed a preview where Michael comes back with a big ol'fro.

Then later on, I was watching the Cosby show on Nick @ Night and low and behold who do I see? Harold Perrineau... He played Scott, a guy that was dating Theo's girl friend Justine... and he had a big ol'fro... except it was in the shape of a box because, of course, in 1989, that was the style.

I hope that the early 90's never comes back in style.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

The end of Black White: the project

Here are my overall/concerns with the show:

1. It was unfair of the producers to make them live together. Living with people you don't know would be hard on anybody. They could've gone through the project living next door to each other and having scheduled meetings each day or every other day. This way, they could "pass" and then go home and reflect on it and really say what they felt without feeling like they would offend someone. The person I felt bad for the most in this situation was Rose because I think she actually got it, but she couldn't express it without upsetting her parents.

2. There were some definite family issues with the Sparks that didn't need to be played out on TV. The fact that Nick had been kicked out of school (and how stereotypical was that) didn't need to be played out on tv. That was a black cloud on that family that only served to re-enforce a negative stereotype about young AA men; they're only interested in bling, living a gangster lifestyle, they don't care about education, and they're all lazy. I was extremely unhappy that they showed that. The only good thing that came out of that was that maybe they discovered that he like photography and that middle class AA families can see that it's not just the poor kids who give up on college. Poor kids sometimes give up because they can't afford college. Kids who come from middle-class families don't always have that obstacle. But sometimes they don't see the value of education because they take things for granted. And I didn't understand why the Sparks didn't seem to do more about clearing Nick's name and getting him back in school.

3. I hadn't considered the fact that instead of Bruno being racist, he is classist. he can't understand the life of anyone outside of the middle class. I also think that his opinions are common of kids of immigrants. Early on, he said that his parents were immigrants and that they worked hard to build a successful life. I think that immigrant parents, in general, do a good job instilling work ethics in their kids. However, I sort of agree with Brian in that Bruno didn't understand any other culture because he didn't want to understand it. I do think that the producers took Bruno to some places that were stereotypical. The meeting that he and Carmen went to meet that lady was an event for women. So he really didn't fit in because he was a man. On the flipside, I couldn't believe that he didn't see the racism at the county western bar. It was so obvious.

4. The jumper cables thing was odd. If the cameras hadn't been there and they didn't look like two middle class black men, I think that the outcome would've been different. If they had looked like Nick (with baggy pants and bling) and the car had looked beat up, I don't know if people would've helped them because they would have suspected that they were being set up.

5. Rose seemed to learn the most throughout the whole project. I think she'll stay in contact with the Sparks. Hopefully, she will continue her poetry.

6. Overall, I think that the producers did a bad job on this project. They pulled out all the stereotypes and then didn't try to squash any of them. They focused more on the white people learning something negative and the black people learning nothing at all. None of the exercises the Sparks family went through were meant for them to learn about the "problems" associated with being white besides having "boring hobbies" like knitting.

I'm glad the show is over. I think they could've done a better job with it. I don't think it's fair that they made these two families the official representatives for each race. It was just too heavy a burden.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Funny coincidence

I find it interesting that Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes had their baby on the same day that Brooke Sheilds had her baby... hmmmm.....

I wonder if the two families will every meet at Mommy and me classes.

Saturday, April 15, 2006

Thursday, April 13, 2006

Baby Steps

I have set a goal to be more active in the ministry and since I started working toward that goal, I'm finding new opportunities opening up to me. I'm getting to meet and work with new people, accomplishing another goal of mine, to become more social. I'm also getting out in the ministry and trying new facets of the ministry.

I was talking to someone today who has been encouraging me to auxiliary pioneer for months. Auxiliary pioneers spend 50 hours a month in the ministry, going from door-to-door, conducting bible studies, etc. I'm not quite at that point, but I am working towards that. I'm trying to get my hours up each month, but right now, my goal is to get to and remain at the national average of about 10 hours a month. It seems like a little bit of time in the grand scheme of things, but when I think of what the speaker said last night at the memorial of Christ's death, that Jesus Christ suffered 4 inch nails through his hands for all of us, not just his Christian followers, but for every single person on earth, it's hard to imagine that giving up 10 hours a month would even scratch the surface as something I can do in return to honor Jesus' life. He left his disciples the command to "go therefore and make disciples of people of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the holy spirit, teaching them to observe the things I have commanded you" and I want to really take an active share in doing this.

As for me, I'm going to continue to work on my goals and grow spiritually. My next hurdle is going to the Spanish congregation.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Memorial of Jesus Christ's death

It is the most important night of the year, for it commemorates the single greatest act in human history, an act that Christians around the world put faith in; the death of Jesus Christ. As the one who sacrificed his life for all mankind, Jesus set the greatest example of love by any human being. His love was only surpassed by his Father, who made it possible for his son to give his life.

Tonight, I went to the memorial of Jesus Christ's death at the Kingdom Hall and every year that I go, I find that the information we are given is so valuable and so important. It makes me appreciate just how loving a God we have and how much his son cares for us. Their love, Jehovah God and Jesus, is so unsurpassing that we can even begin to comprehend it to the full. We don't deserve it because we are born sinners, but He offers it to us all freely. I've known this for years, but it's like I'm just getting a fuller sense of what that means. How awesome and awe inspiring their love is for us.

I was happy to share this evening with my father and stepmother, who are not Jehovah's Witnesses. They really enjoyed it and that made it all the better.

You know, I have parents, siblings, and even a best friend and my love for them, at least I feel, is huge... I'd do almost anything for them. I would give my life for any of them. But I don't know if I can say the same for the rest of humankind. It just makes me appreciate Jehovah's love, his greatest cardinal attribute.

Read more about Jesus's last 5 days on earth

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Ah..sweet sleep

Today I took a nap today and it was the best nap I had had in a long time. It was one of those where you fall asleep on the couch and sleep for about an hour, but feel like you've slept for 8 hours. I woke up in the strangest position, my arms raised above my head as if I were reaching for something in my sleep. It was great.

I hope that I sleep as well tonight.

Sunday, April 09, 2006

Anxiety

It feels like a caffeine buzz...
that nervous, unsettled feeling in the pit of my stomach
when I feel like I can't stop moving because if I do
the world might end.

I hold back tears because I'm afraid to let the feelings go.
Even though they hurt me, feeling something is better than feeling nothing at all.
That's what I tell myself.
I am a liar.

I listen to songs that speak of unrealized love
and wonder, could this be me?
Should I call or be silent?
In silence, there is no rejection.
But the pain that I wish to avoid follows me where ever I go
as long as I keep silent.
I hate silence.

I want to hear the sounds of laughter and love in the wind and the trees.
The happiness that comes with dreams fulfilled is my goal.
I want it.
I will have it.

Saturday, April 08, 2006

Spring Break

It's finally spring break! One week off. I really needed this break. I have felt like I was going stir crazy at work. There's so much going on at work lately. It feels like it'll never end. But in my mind, I know that it will.

My goal for the week is to stay busy...well sort of busy. The only bad thing about having a week off is that I don't have as much interaction with people. Having that much time alone with my thoughts can get me into trouble, a fact to which my friends can attest. I'm going to try to keep my feelings in check this week.

I got some travel books today to help me make my plans for my vacation. I still have to make a definite decision. I'm still doing some research to make sure that I can afford everything. I have found a ton of free or lost cost activities, so that'll help. Thanks goodness for the internet and Frommers 8-)

Going Away

I'm getting my notes together to go away. I've been online researching Boston and I think that's where I'm going to be this summer. There are so many historical places to see and lots of entertainment.



I'll let you know what I've planned.

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Pix from Columbia

Leaning Trees

Is it just me or are those trees leaning?


Main Trees

The flowers are in full bloom


Main Trees

There are lots of blossoms in front of my building at work.


Parking Garage

Here's the parking garage...well at least the construction site.


Stairway to Heaven


Stairway to Heaven

More pix from the Cherry Blossom festival

bent tree

How did that tree get like that?


Why are there steps in front of the Franklin Delano Roosevelt Memorial?


junk in your trunk

Talk about junk in your trunk.


Blossoms everywhere!


popcorn

Hey that looks like popcorn!


popcorn

MMM popcorn!


sparkles

Sparkles everywhere!

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

I'm feeling good

Birds flying high
You know how I feel
Sun in the sky
You know how I feel
Breeze driftin' on by
You know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
And I'm feeling good

-Michael Buble

Monday, April 03, 2006

DST - day two

It's day two of daylight savings time and I'm still tired. What's the deal. When will I feel like myself again? Oh well, no sense crying over spilled milk.

Today, so far, I've gotten a lot done. I've just about completed all my projects, despite the fact that one of them isn't going to be delivered the way the user wanted it. But it can't be helped. I'm not worried about it because it's a case of the user wanting something the software just can't do. 8-(

Later that day...

I went to aquafit after work and that actually gave me the energy I needed all day. Well, it was ok anyway because I had a powerpoint assignment to do. It was kind of boring and frustrating at the same time because after a certain time in the evening the creative textual juices are not only dried up, but the space they normally occupy is as barren as the Sahara. I can understand why people resort to plagarism... not that I do that...I'm just saying.

I read something interesting (and sad) today about Sesame Street. They are bringing out a series of DVDs for children 0-3. So you're probably thinking the same thing I thought, "AND??". Apparently there are parents who are mad and said that babies 0-3 shouldn't watch TV. So I wonder if they just stop watching TV as a family for 3 years. I mean, if you stopped watching TV in 2004, you (and your kid) would've missed two seasons of Lost, America's Next Top Model, 87,000 Brokeback Mountain jokes and the Oscar winning performance(and certainly the highlight of my year) of this years's best song from a movie, "It's hard out here for a pimp".

Now, those shows... I wouldn't show them to my 0-3 year old. But Sesame Street, come along now...Somebody had to watch it, and that somebody isn't me. How about I just put my 2 1/2 year old neice in front of the tv so that Sesame Street can get the ratings it needs.

Leave Elmo alone, he doesn't cuss, kill, backstab or do anyhing that would require an adult rating. Come on people, cut the brotha a break!

What Language Should You Learn?

You Should Learn Spanish

For you, learning a language is about career advancement and communication.
Knowing Spanish will bring you tons of possiblities for jobs and travel. Bárbaro!

Late night inspiration

I can't believe that it is 2:54 am and I'm still awake. I got inspired this evening to finally work on my personal website. I've been saying that I was going to do this for a year or more, but never got around to it. Since I bought the domain name, I figured that I might as well use it.

So this is what I have so far...there's no content, just a design template.

http://www.jmjdesigns.com
JMJ Designs

Sunday, April 02, 2006

What do people envy about you?

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.
People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

Which shade of green are you?

You Are Emerald Green

Deep and mysterious, it often seems like no one truly gets you.
Inside, you are very emotional and moody - though you don't let it show.
People usually have a strong reaction to you... profound love or deep hate.
But you can even get those who hate you to come around. There's something naturally harmonious about you.

A new neighbors

Well, I haven't needed my alarm clock to wake me up in the morning for the past couple of days. We have a woodpecker that has moved into the neighborhood and every morning like clock work, "peck, peck, peck, peck, peck, peck". I'm all for nature, but at six in the morn, I want quiet. Add to the woodpecker the family of birds who decided to have a family reunion this morning and catch up on old times. So between the pecks and caws, I'm exhausted.

I made a pot of coffee this morning because Sunday mornings were made for coffee, full of caffeine and favor (don't tell my doctor). So as I'm about to pour a cup of Joe, I realize that there isn't a spoonful of sugar in my apt. (NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) Isn't it enough that I've got woodpeckers and congregating birds outside my window... oh yeah, and Daylight savings times..they took an hour from my life. Why lord why?

So I got myself together and when to Giant to get sugar, envelopes and stamps.

Sugar, envelopes and stamps
Sugar, envelopes and stamps
Sugar, envelopes and.... uh.... stamps.

That's what I have to do when I don't make a written list. I got into Giant and saw Biore pores strips... what was I here for?

Sugar, envelopes, and stamps.

I gathered my parcels, so many parcels... everyone had parcels (sorry, had a Green Card flashback) . I hopped in the car and headed home for some coffee. Now that I have the sugar, I can have some coffee and feel like my whole self.

There are people moving in upstairs. I saw a little girl, so maybe it's a family. I hope they're quiet.

Biometrics

I had to write a paper about biometrics for my Intro to Computers class. I know, you're probably thinking "bio-what-ics?"

Let me give you the scaled version of my paper. Remember how people could activate computers with their voices on Star Trek (any of them)? That's biometrics. Basically, it's using yourself, your biology, physiology as your "key" to gain access to systems. The most prevalent form of biometrics is fingerprint comparison. You've seen it. It's when you use your fingerprint to gain access to a system or room. This method is generally the lowest in cost, so even everyday Joes can use fingerprint comparison to unlock their cars or computers. It sounds great, right?

Well, some of the more invasive forms of biometrics threaten to infringe on people's privacy. For instance, facial scans can be used to scan a stadium of people to find terrorists. Sounds simple enough, right? People at the 2001 Super Bowl didn't think so when it happened to them. Of course a year later in New Orleans at the 2002 Super Bowl, people didn't complain as much, mostly because we were still dealing with the horror of the 9/11 attacks.

So, is biometrics good or bad? Well, as with any new technology, there is potential for good and for bad. Each of us has to decide.

Saturday, April 01, 2006

10 People Every Woman Needs

By Linda Sharp

1. An Ethel Mertz. This lifelong friend will be there for all your impetuous "Lucy" moments, whether you're embarking on a crazy scheme (spying on your ex, dying your hair pink) or nipping at the Vitameatavegamin.

2. A boy friend. As in platonic male pal. While he'll never replace your girlfriends for late-night Ben & Jerry's gossip sessions, having a Ben or Jerry in your life can be just as beneficial. With him, you're free to sport your dowdiest duds, have a heated political discussion (without fear that it will carry into the bedroom) and even belch out loud. He'll be your plus-one at parties and the third wheel when you need a buffer. And his insight is especially helpful for all those "Y" questions, such as, "Why are men so...?" "Why did he...?" and "Why won't he...?"

3. A born-to-shop pal. This sartorial sidekick will not only help you find flattering outfits amid the chaos of your closet, she'll also score a heavenly pair of black pumps for you (on sale!)-even when she's shopping for herself.

4. A money manager. A financial advisor can help you get fiscally fit, from reducing your debt to funding your kids' education. Get recommendations from friends or family, or narrow the field by checking out the Financial Planners Standards Council Web site at cfp-ca.org.

5. A fitness buddy. Pairing up can help you slim down. In one University of Pittsburgh study, participants who worked out with pals lost 33 percent more weight than those who exercised solo. "In addition to providing increased motivation and better results, exercising with a partner is just a lot more fun," says Charles Stuart Platkin, author of Breaking the Pattern (Red Mill Press, 2002).

6. A gynecologist. Despite the skimpy paper gown and awkward position, this relationship can save your life.

7. A Bea Arthur. They don't call her a "Golden Girl" for nothing. Having an empowered, feisty female role model lends wonderful perspective.

8. A trusted hairstylist. Trusted being the key word. This is someone who comprehends the meaning of "just a trim" and can teach you how to achieve salon results at home. How to find your mane man or woman? Ask someone with locks you love for the name of her stylist. (Of course, once you settle down with the shear genius, you'll need to keep the news to yourself.)

9. A dream lover. You're in a committed relationship, but every so often, you picture yourself getting jiggy with Ashton Kutcher/Tyrese/the UPS guy. Sick and twisted? Nah. Imagining yourself in an intimate situation with someone other than your partner is normal-and then some. "Sexual fantasies increase interest and arousal and decrease anxiety," says Wendy Maltz, coauthor of Private Thoughts (New World Library, 2001). Hey, as long as it takes you both to rapturous heights, he never has to be the wiser.

10. A child. Watching a kid (yours or someone else's) at play reminds you how simple and joyful life can be.

Friday, March 31, 2006

Who knew?

Did you know that the Eiffel Tower has a website? It's pretty cool too!
http://www.tour-eiffel.fr/teiffel/uk/

If you're like me and afraid of heights, you can do the virtual climb at http://www.tour-eiffel.fr/teiffel/uk/ludique/visite/index.html.

Au revoir mes amis!

Thursday, March 30, 2006

There exists a friend sticking closer than a brother...Proverbs 18:24

There are days when I sit and think about how good my life is right now. Although I don't have a family of my own, I have the freedom to do almost anything I want. Now of course the grass is always greener on the other side and part of me thinks, wants, desires a family. But today, on this date, I'm truly happy.

I have good friends and in fact, a BF... I thought I'd never use that term again. I've been afraid of that word and the implications and responsibilities associated with it. But I can say that my BF is a great person, who really cares about me. She builds me up so that I become better, but doesn't tear me down in the process. That's something that many people haven't mastered. She respects me for me and despite the fact that she's older, she treats me like an equal.

She wants me to be happy and achieve the things I want in life. But every now and again adds a small dose of reality when I turn to the left or the right. And I'd like to think that I do the same for her, even if it's to a small degree.

The best thing about my BF is something that she told me today... She's happy. For that I am grateful. "Time and unforeseen occurrenced befall us all" (Ecclesiastes 9:11b) and none of us is promised tomorrow. We need to cherish the time that we are alive. It's so important do know that each of us is loved and that each of us love those close to us.

Monday, March 27, 2006

Cherry Blossoms

I went to see the Cherry Blossoms in Washington, DC today and it was a really nice day. It was a bit breezy, but the blossoms looked really pretty. It seemed as if everybody and their sister were out there taking pictures.




We walked by the Jefferson Memorial too...



And then there was the Bureau of Engraving and Printing...


Ok, so here's a picture of me and my friend Gina...she's the one holding the camera...don't you see her? Oh well, I do...

Saturday, March 25, 2006

They really were Good Times



I don't care who you are or where you come, you know good and well that you love the theme song from Good Times. Everybody knows it and can't help but sing along when they hear it.

Good Times Lyrics

Good Times by Dave Grusin and Marilyn and Alan Bergman - Good Times Lyrics


Good Times.
Any time you meet a payment.
Good Times.
Any time you need a friend.
Good Times.
Any time you're out from under.

Not getting hastled, not getting hustled.
Keepin' your head above water,
Making a wave when you can.

Temporary lay offs.
Good Times.
Easy credit rip offs.
Good Times.
Scratchin' and surviving.
Good Times.
Hangin in a chow line
Good Times.
Ain't we lucky we got 'em
Good Times

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

You will not believe this

Yesterday (Monday), I got an email from a user asking me to "help" her delete some images from a webpage. "Help" generally means, "do it for me" and I was in no mood to do such a simple task for her. I sat through 3 interviews that day and had to spend about an hour in discussions about the candidates. Oh yeah, I had a migraine too.

So I sent her instructions on deleting the images and thought to myself, "that'll teach you to ask me to update your page". So she emailed me today saying, "thanks for the help. I was able to get it done. But can you help me with something else." Now the second thing was a problem that she really couldn't fix. So I fixed and emailed her back. Then she emails me again or maybe she called me and said that she was still confused.

Now here's the funny part. She uploaded a Microsoft Word document to her website and needed to create a link to it on a particular page. So I told her to rename her document so that there were no spaces in the name. I had to run out to do something, but when I came back, I called her and she said, "I fixed it." I took a look at her website and noticed that her document was now a .pdf document. I mentally scratched my head and then asked her, "did you convert your document to a pdf or just rename it?"

"Uh... I renamed it and put .pdf at the end. Do you have convert it to a pdf?", she said.

"Only if you want it to work", I said.

The conversation got more ridiculuos from there and culminated in her saying, "the president (of the college) doesn't have to update her pages or convert documents herself. She has people who do that." So I told her that once she becomes the president, I'll update all her pages. But until then, she has to learn to do it herself.

My office had a great laugh about this after I finished talking to her on the phone.

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Spring Cleaning

I cleaned my apt up this weekend. Well actually, I still have to finish the bedroom. I have to put the sheets on my bed. and put away my clean clothes. Then I'll be done. There's something about a clean house that helps foster a clear mind. A clear mind can help minimize anxieties and ease fears.

This week starts my school's spring break, that is, UMUC. I still have to work and catch up with homework, so it's really not a break for me. HCC's spring break won't come until April 10th. If I could've taken this week off, I would've. But I have interviews this week. That's what I get for volunteering to be a search committee.

Well, I'd better get back to cleaning.

Saturday, March 18, 2006

Meetings are...

where minutes are taken and hours are lost!

- quote by my co-worker Kathy

Friday, March 17, 2006

What I know for sure

No, it's not Oprah writing...

When I think about that past few years since I left Sam Goody, I notice a pattern in my life. I have wanted to succeed, but have been afraid of it at the same time. I don't know what I thought might happen, except that I'd lose myself. But I'm starting to figure out that succeeding isn't the scary thing people make it out to be. It's not always about getting ahead and making the most money. It's not even about climbing the corporate ladder. It's about doing your best and being good at something you love.

I love my job...I know I do more than people realize, but it's ok. I'm one of the go-to people and I actually enjoy that. I don't make as much as I need to live here in Columbia, but I do make good money for what I do. Could I use more? Of course...I'd be a fool to say anything else. But all in all, I think that contentment is the key and for the most part, I have that.

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

I should be happier than this

I'm going to assume that I'm just tired and have listened to a little too much Evanescence this evening to be in control of my emotions because for some reason I have this need to cry. I have no idea why except that I feel overwhelmed right now. I have too many tasks on my plate...things that I don't exactly know how to do. But because me have an obligation to stakeholders (there's a nice baldridge word for you), I have to plow through this.

It's funny, I'm on the threshold of getting what I've wanted for over a year and yet, I'm not as happy about it as I thought I'd be. I know I'm not a glutton for punishment, so what's my problem?

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Breaking up is hard to do. Getting closure is even harder...

Today I did something that I've been avoiding for a year. I had to go get some closure. I had a talk with someone about some problems I had a year ago. I was supposed to follow up on my progress, but in true chicken fashion, I never went back, mostly because I didn't know what to say. My problems didn't really change within the proceeding months, nor had my attitude about the problems. I felt wronged and wanted justice, albeit my own brand of justice. That was part of the problem.

I think that I needed to learn that sometimes humpty dumpty can't be put back together. Despite my efforts to make things right, sometimes, things just stay broken and I had to learn to deal with it. In my naive brain, I actually thought that I could close a chasm that was years in the making. But you know what, sometimes separations happen for a reason. Sometimes Mom and Dad can't be together and be happy. But with any separation, loyalties are tested and feelings are hurt. It's hard to take sides, but it's inevitable. The trick is to get to a point where you can forgive yourself and everyone else.

So that's what today was about...Accepting that separation is ok and that despite what has happened in the past, I can still move on.

Saturday in NYC

We had a good time in NYC on Saturday despite the fact that we didn't see Isaac Mizrahi or Lisa Loeb. I'm not sure why I was so obsessed with meeting them on Saturday, but I found myself looking out in every clothing store for Isaac and just anywhere for Lisa. Oh well, it wasn't meant to be.

The Museum of Modern Art was....interesting. They have weird pieces there. For example the very first room we went into looked like an IKEA showroom. I could not believe that I had just paid $20 for that. But thankfully, it got much better when we looked at the photographs and paintings.

Oh yeah, we saw a "hobo", as my brother called him, who appeared to be high, probably on heroine. He stopped for traffic and then bent over slowly with his head in the traffic. I'm surprised that no one hit him.

Where'd the word HOBO come from anyway?

BTW, it sure was nice out today. Who would have thought it would be 82 degrees on March 13th? It's been nice for a couple of days now. Snow must be coming.

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Desperado

Desperado
Why don't you come to your senses
Ben out ridin' fences, for so long now
Oh, you're a hard one
But I know that you got your reasons
These things that are pleasin' you
Can hurt you somehow

Don't you draw the queen of diamonds boy
She'll beat you if she's able
You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet
But it seems to me some fine things have been laid upon your table
But you only want the ones you can't get

Desperado
Oh, you ain't gettin' no younger
Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you home
And freedom, oh freedom, well that's just some people talkin'
Your prison is walkin' through this world all alone

Don't your feet get cold in the wintertime
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine
It's hard to tell the nighttime from the day
And you're losin' all your highs and lows
Ain't it funny how the feelin' goes away

Desperado
Why don't you come to your senses
Come down from those fences, open the gate
It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you
You better let somebody love you, let somebody love you
You better let somebody love you
Before it's too late